Narcissistic Delusions

I'm a total fuck-up, delusional, hated and scarred
Narcissistic and needy, can't stop what I start
But the blood won't come off, my hands won't come clean
Beauty grows in the hearts of the cold and obscene

Obligations are weathered with doubt and regret
I bring down every person and soul that I've met
But I'm apathetic, and nothing hurts me
Emotionless BITCH as far as you can see

I'm relentless, uncaring, I keep secrets and hide
From the passionless demons eating me inside
I never did care, and I throw away trust
I give into the heart of the man that I lust

Raging, intensive, I WONT bite my tongue
You can't try to control me or change what I've done
I'm angry and spiteful, he stole me away
I'm a monster containing a heart of decay

Tripping on power and low self-esteem
Like a razor I cut at your hopes and your dreams
Unholy, deceiving, pathetic and weak
Aggressive and forceful when words do not speak

Flawed and distorted, lackluster and lies
Carving hearts into skin that you hate and despise
Parasitic and lonely, lacking self control
The darker side that never did seem to show

• On Tuesday, July 31, 2007, Mylissa (1128) wrote:
  
  outfreakingstanding.
  
  
• On Monday, July 2, 2007, Mab (1198) wrote:
  
  rawr!
  
  
• On Thursday, June 14, 2007, Bella Butchery (947) wrote:
  
  i feel special i feel special.... thus is the drawback from kids raised by adults from the 70's and 80's... we are raised to beleive we are special, when in reality, we are simply individuals... honest, loved it.
  
  
• On Wednesday, June 13, 2007, SalemLex (36) wrote:
  
  I like this. brings back memories.