JUST BE

Life’s just too complicated
There is one too many
Of those big decisions
To make

And I hate
Hate that I am put on the spot
Dragged into the floodlights
Of life

And I despise the fact
That I can’t understand

You see my brain
It hurts too much
To make an effort

And I wish
I could just slash my wrists
But I know that would get me no where
But in the hospital
With more bills to pay
And an ugly kind of scar

I feel as though
I’m running around
Dressed with a painted smile
A happy hat play
All the while
It’s the same old cycle

I’m never really sure
What to say or do
I just act and be

And hope I’ll make it past
The opening act
On the stage of life's insecurities

And if I ever take a glimpse
By chance in a mirror
I no longer agree
With what I see
Not a desperate little girl
Just a confused "adult",

HA

What a joke
This life I live
I’m a leaf in the wind
A forgotten memory
One of those things
That just has to BE
That is me

• A former member wrote: I felt like I were reading universal thoughts, moments like this I feel the world aint so big, thanks.. gotta alot out of it
  
  
• On Thursday, March 29, 2007, DiscordiaDarling (30) wrote:
  
  Speechless, I'm in awe.
  
  
• On Saturday, March 24, 2007, Mistress Shadow (326) wrote:
  
  I'll never forget you leaf for that 'desperate little girl' is imprinted for me. How I wish I could know the adult in you now. ~T
  
  
• On Tuesday, February 13, 2007, soul dancer (133) wrote:
  
  How I wish to just BE. If only it were that simple, yet I strive everyday towards that end. Wonderful write!
  
  
• On Tuesday, February 13, 2007, Bella Butchery (947) wrote:
  
  somtimes i miss the good stuff and never know it, ill have to come here more often
  
  
• On Tuesday, February 13, 2007, Disassembly Boy (79) wrote:
  
  wow, this was very truthful and revealing. I love how you exposed your thoughts rigt down to the marrow of your point.. beautiful
  
  
• A former member wrote: This was such a deep and intense write. Well done.
  
  
• On Monday, February 12, 2007, Sharon Rose (625) wrote:
  
  if only we could, honey, if only we could..
  
  
• On Monday, February 12, 2007, Sharon Rose (625) wrote:
  
  I realized how very little sense my comment made after I posted it: I meant, if only we could JUST BE, instead of being everything else to everyone else..if that made any more sense..