Dinner with my Eating disorder

Boil 2 cups water
Add 2 cups rice
No salt
No margerine
Put it in a bowl and let it sit
Watch it
Give up and take a bite
Punish yourself
5 situps
Another bite
Another ten situps
S~Q~U~I~R~M
How many calories have I just eaten?
Another bite
35 minuites with the jump rope
Pick up the fork again
Put it down
I wonder how far I can push myself
On three bites of rice
Dump the bowl out
And it's two hours on the treadmill
I collapse into bed.
Dinner was exhausting tonite


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• On Friday, October 19, 2007, Mab (1193) wrote:
  
  a glimpse into a personal hell...what's for dessert?
  
  
• On Thursday, September 21, 2006, Velvet_Raventon (654) wrote:
  
  Is it over now?... *hugs* ~V.
  
  
• On Thursday, September 21, 2006, Bluegirl (213) wrote:
  
  Well, I would say mostly. Still some days I'm too upset, or stressed to eat.. But most days I feel fine. I think it is something I'll always carry with me, but I am certainly not like this poem anymore. :) *hug*
  
  
• On Saturday, September 23, 2006, Velvet_Raventon (654) wrote:
  
  I'm happy to hear that! ~V.
  
  
• On Sunday, September 17, 2006, dying angel (1076) wrote:
  
  i used to be anorexic...its so hard and no one really understands it unless they've gone through it. but yeah this explains breakfast lunch and dinner
  
  
• A former member wrote: You know, usually the ones with the eating disorder are brilliant in their intelligence? I don't know...I think it's so sad for someone to have to go through this...
  
  
• On Sunday, September 17, 2006, DarkPoet (258) wrote:
  
  Wouldn't it be great if you could just eat the eating disorder and let the stomach deal with it?
  
  
• On Sunday, September 17, 2006, Bluegirl (213) wrote:
  
  ha ha! too funny Matt :)
  
  
• On Sunday, September 17, 2006, The Zebra Warrior (2209) wrote:
  
  what a deft twist of irony and a pinch of dark humour with quite a serious messgae to it...calorie counting and all that crap..shock revelation: humans aren't meant to be perfect and anyone struggling with this...
  
  
• On Sunday, September 17, 2006, The Zebra Warrior (2209) wrote:
  
  it's a shame no doubt, I tell myself let me eat the crap I want...at least if I died I enjoyed my last meal!!! Very illuminating and well spoken...Col.
  
  
• On Sunday, September 17, 2006, Markus Porkwing (594) wrote:
  
  I use to eat white rice with gravy. I miss those meals.