My Mind’s At Fault

I got myself to blame
For this fucked up life
My state of mind
Is crippled
Sick from the fear
And all these damn tears
Are clouding my vision
My veins are all on fire
With raddled thoughts
And shaky hands
There’s this iron, awful taste
Of blood in my mouth
And all I can do
Is sit here staring
Unable to quench
This raw, excruciating hunger
A burning deep inside
For something more
Something tangible
My spirit is dwindling
Fading away from me
As I close my eyes
I feel my heart beat
Pulsing under, within me
If only I could find
Something to cure me
To fix what’s broken
But I’m still lost

So meet me in my mind
And stitch my wounds shut
I can’t see what’s going on
For I hide behind myself
I have myself to blame
If only I could find the strength
To come back,
To become alive

• On Tuesday, June 27, 2006, mywristshurt (449) wrote:
  
  amazing.. thats all i have to say about it.. i thnink you know how i feel about the way you write
  
  
• On Wednesday, May 31, 2006, Mistress Shadow (326) wrote:
  
  I'll meet you in your mind any day, as long as the doors open. *hugs* I miss you and your words and especially your mind. ~T
  
  
• A former member wrote: Lovely and sad very well put *Roady*
  
  
• On Saturday, May 6, 2006, mywristshurt (449) wrote:
  
  this is one of the reasons why i want to write like you... you're just so good at it
  
  
• On Friday, April 28, 2006, TaintedButterfly (837) wrote:
  
  "My veins are all on fire".. That line is just awesome and speaks so clearly of your thoughts being invaded by sadness. This is really sad, but honest and well written. *bravo* Julia~
  
  
• On Friday, April 28, 2006, Sharon Rose (625) wrote:
  
  That captured something I feel and deal with far too often...that internal struggle to topple the darker half that shades who we want to be. As always, brilliantly poignant and sad.