i dont see where i went wrong

dismiss these feelings
fuck the love
replace with hate
and shoot the dove

were fucked
i feel it inside
my blood is heating up
and theres nothing left inside to hide

never think of me
dont open your eyes
scream, bleed, kill me
open up and fuck your teary cries

tell everyone what u think of me
show how much u care
fuck me over, shoot me dead
this is what u want to hear

you dont want me here anymore
me leaving: your dream
this is me
fucked up and obsene

you dont know me
you think you do
take everything you think you have
and throw it away with everything you thought you knew

you tricked me
im a figment of your imagination
i curl into a ball
and try to forget u ever happened

this isnt a story
to show u i think u dont care
this is truth
going where no one can breath air

this is the life
ive chosen to lead
im not as bad as u think
whats wrong with these tears i bleed

arnt they good enough
dont they satisfy your needs
put em in a bottel
and break them along with my pleeds

maybe im going nuts
maybe its just me
whats the point
when im always the one to believe

i believe everything...
"i love you"...
together... forever

switch to a suicidle mind
"i hate you"...
alone... never

so where do you go
when your not needed anymore
you cant make anyone happy
and all there is is war

you try and try
but its never good enough
you feel youve lost
so with your wrists you get rough

cutting little slivers
of happiness to the bone
engrave this feeling
and write it in stone

dont make it go away
the only smile made on my face
im thinking about love
but then hate takes its place

its always easy to think
about death rape and cutting
those demons in that firey pit of hell
open doors weve been subconciously shutting

a dream turned into a nightmare
a representative of your pain
slip in a pill
and go insain

its you an me now
fighting this rediculous insanity
this is who i am
not who im pretending to be

is there reason
to my incencitive words
no this is my anti drug
and you tearing my heart into thirds

now theres nothing left to look at
nothing more to say
all i do now
is wait for my life to decay

• A former member wrote: *shivers* woah...powerfully potent with a slight note of anger attached to every syllabol...this is one time I wouldn't want to cross you. Beautiful write...I like the rhyming you've done. *Evangel*