Farewell to God

That of dreams
And that of hope
Means nothing more to me
Here I stand
In front of you
My beholder
Lost in a sea of tears
Over run by fears
Its time, I know
I can tell
Simply by
The slightest movement
Of your hand, or head
My heart is heavy
Too filled with sorrows
Of unknown mysterious
Shadows of doubt
Swirl around me
But time's grief
Is overwhelming
And age has not
Treated me so nicely
So here I am
I stand in front
Of you, my judge
My mystic
I fear however
That I've lost my faith
Faith in myself
My self worth, unwanted,
I can't understand
The world around me
I've lost myself in the crowd
In the sea of tears I drown
Unaware is my mind
To my bodies sickness
I feel I am ready
To be put to rest
My spirit has died within
I've spent myself
Too thin these years
I realize now
I loved you all
But to all I must
Say goodbye

















I can see my Angel
Her beauty surpassing
All I've ever seen.
On the foothills of green
Flourishing in her life
Of mystic powers
Overpowering
I must go to her
You see, you must understand
It's time for me to go
And I can not
Find it in my heart
To love you God
I can not lie any longer
I do NOT love you God
So I go unto death
With this uncertainty
But I can not find faith
When one does not believe
But do not worry
I still go towards my Angel

More comments:

• On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Sharon Rose (625) wrote:
  
  And if I said at this point that I got it and this was a beautiful portrayal of sorrow, I think it would be lost in the dungeons of comments at this unheard prayer's knees...you wind metaphor with more depth than most...
  
  
• On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Mistress Shadow (326) wrote:
  
  This poem is beautiful. Your melancholy tone captures every word of this piece. Since no one else was going to comment on your poem, I thought I should. Also, know I'm always here with a shoulder.~T~
  
  
• On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Kali Ma (48) wrote:
  
  this was sad to read. i hope things get better... as for the ppl (person) below: you need to relax a little and realize that poetry is not literal... ~ Asheai
  
  
• On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, MESUN (288) wrote:
  
  aside from picking this thing to death, i think it is a wonderful write. very beautiful, opening yourself, being vulnerable. i like it, plain and simple.
  
  
• On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, ApathysKiss (419) wrote:
  
  if you're gonna argue specify which religions speak of angels what is she islam? jewish? what? what saint sentient? i am quite informed of other religions, religions that do not fall under the category of 'christianity.' so what are you defending?
  
  
• On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, GothicBlack (230) wrote:
  
  i am under my own "category", i do not fit into any one religion. I speak of Angels, only because i like the idea of them. I think Six understood me best of all, as he always does. Thyank you all for your input though (i think. lol). ~gothic~
  
  
• On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Saint Sentient (19) wrote:
  
  Dear, please seem literate before you argue. Note the 'maybe' in my comments? You're the one that assumed it was Christianity. But she cleared it up, why not let it go?
  
  
• On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, ApathysKiss (419) wrote:
  
  and that was literate.
  
  
• On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, ApathysKiss (419) wrote:
  
  i just did look down below after her clearing statements.
  
  
• On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Six-Out (1604) wrote:
  
  Silly kids, arguing religion as if any of you know what the hell you're talking about. Tara, this was heartbreaking. I want you to be happy, really happy. You deserve it babe, hopefully this was just midnight scribblings.
  
  
• On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, ApathysKiss (419) wrote:
  
  oh shuddup, jon =)~
  
  
• On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Six-Out (1604) wrote:
  
  You just know I'm right. ;)
  
  
• On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Six-Out (1604) wrote:
  
  You're still near the top of my people list, even if we don't talk...ever anymore. I hope you're ok.