to nobodies

The memory is softly gritty
Like fog is to eyes
Staring blankly across my wooden floor
Sucking inspiration out of (her)
Anything, really
The etched flower patterns on a bowl
In the corner
Of, what might as well be soul, mine.
But the summer was sweet, (like once was someone I knew)
Warm air off cooling asphalt, making my curtains dance
Such a simple dance (really just a step or two)
So inane a memory, why is it so dear
(why is everything, in here)
such a pretty girl, never felt so good alone
on a gorgeous night, satisfied at home
for once

bastards in their beds with bullets in their heads
that’s how I sang myself to sleep
too crushed to feel sad , I had ground my concrete heart
to dust
I was warm again, if only for a second.
a whole new way to be sad undone,
undone to no one who was anyone.
To you.
Those who saw me die but thought it was art.
To you, nobody.

• A former member wrote: I LOVE This, It Is Broken But Beautiful
  
  
• On Wednesday, February 8, 2006, xserratedsoulx (248) wrote:
  
  mmmmmmmmmm....that was fantastic. ~lauren~
  
  
• On Wednesday, December 7, 2005, Myrrhkuri the fallen one (101) wrote:
  
  You are very good with words I must say...
  
  
• On Monday, June 20, 2005, Elegant Kiss (224) wrote:
  
  .. I haven't read this, and I'm not sure why. I want to quote it all... "undone to no one who was anyone." I've felt like you've stolen my words and shattered me with a look.
  
  
• On Monday, June 20, 2005, Elegant Kiss (224) wrote:
  
  .. Just one simple look that means nothing to anyone.. But me. I've taken it personal, pray you don't mind. I disagree with Liz.
  
  
• On Sunday, June 5, 2005, snowdrop (2145) wrote:
  
  Indifference loves you for being its friend. Be kind. You always shove my heart back into my throat. I don't mind as long as you don't care.
  
  
• On Saturday, April 30, 2005, Liz (339) wrote:
  
  I really didn't like it. You're usually so stylized and strong, while this felt meandering. I agree the second stanza is better, and there are some beautiful little pieces and references, but overall I wasn't crazy about it.
  
  
• On Thursday, April 28, 2005, swing_the_hammer (64) wrote:
  
  dang. i think i'm in love with you. (oops, did i just type that?)
  
  
• On Wednesday, April 27, 2005, Malice In Wonderland (752) wrote:
  
  It's beautiful...your imagery is amazing as it ever was.
  
  
• On Wednesday, April 27, 2005, Sharon Rose (625) wrote:
  
  *affects a deep base* "nobody knows, the troubles I've seen...."
  
  
• On Wednesday, April 27, 2005, Anth (1437) wrote:
  
  i really felt this, the contrast, too look back from grey times to past summers, in a way. then the second verse just comes collapsing down from calm yet desparing recollection.a complete cave in
  
  
• On Wednesday, April 27, 2005, Sin (1406) wrote:
  
  ...this was amazing and im still trying to get the weight of the last stanza off my heart..~kristy
  
  
• On Wednesday, April 27, 2005, hate_doll (301) wrote:
  
  "bastards in their beds with bullets in their heads/that's how I sang myself to sleep" wonderful. meaningful symbols and very intriguing. also, the second to last time was exquisite
  
  
• On Wednesday, April 27, 2005, Saint_Reaper (261) wrote:
  
  *is moved*.... very intigueing(spell check that).... i like the works you write, bout time you let us share a piece of your mind again... nice write