RoArKe'S ReGrEt

As I sit here and slit my wrists
My veins get tight as I form a fist
It aches so bad as I move it back and forth
And they said, "this is all your life is worth"

My whole life flashes before my eyes
I see all of the truth, and all of the lies
Then I see my blood drip to the floor
I then became startled by the knock at the door

The door bursts open, my sister comes in
She yells, "Dont be like your father, suicide's a sin"
I looked her in the eyes and asked, "is this my fate?"
I fell to my knees and screamed, "you're too late"

She held my hand and let out a prayer
"why didnt you stop him god, this isn't fair"
I wonder why I picked up that knife
Dont be like me, I screwed up my life

Where were you god when I chose the wrong path
You're supposed to guide me, but you let me crash
Judgment day is coming, what do I say
please send me back god, I made a mistake. . .

• On Wednesday, April 8, 2009, The Crimson Queen (1064) wrote:
  
  I'll miss you.
  
  
• On Wednesday, November 9, 2005, to love a psycho (22) wrote:
  
  I'm not lettign Crimson take all credit for loving you cause i do to, just not in the same way that i used to, but it's all the same.
  
  
• A former member wrote: Very powerful. I felt as though I was in the room with the with them.
  
  
• On Tuesday, April 12, 2005, so_skeevy (71) wrote:
  
  the first and last stanzas are amazing.
  
  
• On Tuesday, April 12, 2005, The Crimson Queen (1064) wrote:
  
  if you EVER EVER do this again..i will have someone kick your frickin ass!! you know how much we love you, ya freak! so stick around a while.
  
  
• On Saturday, March 19, 2005, LovelyAssassinx (190) wrote:
  
  Great poem. You captured the emotion very well. Definately on my faves.~Unlucky
  
  
• A former member wrote: i third lordshadow most poems like this seem like a cry for attention this one had a messege in it that was very well exspresed ~~GOTHIC~~
  
  
• On Tuesday, February 8, 2005, Dr Benway (63) wrote:
  
  Ya, I second Lordshaow, most Cutting/suicide stuff makes me gag or laugh, but I really liked this one. I hope to read more from you.
  
  
• On Tuesday, February 8, 2005, The Crimson Queen (1064) wrote:
  
  arent you glad I made you read this? hehe
  
  
• On Tuesday, February 8, 2005, Malice In Wonderland (754) wrote:
  
  I'm with lordshadow, I commend you on this work:) welcome to dp
  
  
• On Tuesday, February 8, 2005, lordshadow (157) wrote:
  
  Usually, I absolutely despise cutting poems... but I said usually. I actually enjoyed this very very much. I thought it came right from the heart and wasn't an attempt at attention like most. Very nicely done... excellent.
  
  
• On Monday, February 7, 2005, Dr Benway (63) wrote:
  
  I don't think a poem has ever made it grit my teeth before, I can really feel this, thank you.
  
  
• On Monday, February 7, 2005, Lydia Jade (1089) wrote:
  
  Yes, very powerful, brings back some bad memories, nice to read your works for the first time, i plan to visit again.
  
  
• On Monday, February 7, 2005, ShardsofSilence (270) wrote:
  
  powerful shit. it flows so smoothly and i love your writing style. nice
  
  
• On Monday, February 7, 2005, CrOsSeD N BoUnD (51) wrote:
  
  thanks crimson. this is my first 'meaningful' poem.
  
  
• On Sunday, February 6, 2005, The Crimson Queen (1064) wrote:
  
  I think I read this one in your notebook already...its great!! i love you man! hehe ~AoD