What It Is To Cry

I didn't know
That one could cry so long
And so hard
That the tears change
Every droplet a burning fire
Crisp and sharp as they leave the eye
And yet still, they come
And the more there is
The harder it is to stop
The harder it is to breath
And in my head
The pressure is building
Ready to explode
The tears do nothing but hurt
As my heart falls apart
Torn by a lovers leave
Departure onto a plane
Heading so far away
With an indefinite amount of time
When will I see you next?
4 months minimum I'm told
But none of it is fair
This was suppose to be over
This game of back and forth
The Gods are cruel
For we're married now
But still you must leave
And I may not follow
Must wait for my damn paper
As this tears us up inside
I just want these tears to stop
Is it so much to ask really?
I've lost the concept of time
I don't even know
How long ago I last saw you
Glancing at the clock through bloodshot eyes
Fuck its only been a few hours
And I have another 6 months are so
Will these tears ever stop?
Will I survive this?
To have come so far and just for what
More time alone, without my husband
My head is aching
Crying for a simple kiss
To come and take this all away
Take away these painful tears
I need this all to end

• On Sunday, May 7, 2006, mywristshurt (449) wrote:
  
  wow.. you got some heartbreak going on and its good to let all of it out by just simply writing.. i love your work, so this just adds on to why i read more of your stuff
  
  
• On Wednesday, December 29, 2004, Sepulcrawl (94) wrote:
  
  I like this one a lot better. It's like the demure briskness you encounter in the fall. -pxc
  
  
• On Wednesday, December 8, 2004, tears of decadence (193) wrote:
  
  *sheds a tear for you, that you and your love may be together soon.*
  
  
• On Tuesday, December 7, 2004, Anth (1437) wrote:
  
  this crushes me,i know it all too well,i dont think ill ever get over it,the first time,..its when days seem like years,and life cant start properly until a day...still waiting, *sigh*
  
  
• On Tuesday, December 7, 2004, purr_verse (1320) wrote:
  
  it angers and frightens me that such a cruel bureaucratic red-tape bullshit decision can cause such needless pain... I am in fear of this happening to me/bakkhus also... we wait for Immigration's decision still... I wish you all the strength in the world;
  
  
• On Tuesday, December 7, 2004, purr_verse (1320) wrote:
  
  you should not have to feel this way. Powerful write indeed.
  
  
• On Tuesday, December 7, 2004, Raven (337) wrote:
  
  *hugs*... It will end... trust me...
  
  
• A former member wrote: damn you are good came home tired and weary only to be slapped across the face with this, and man does it sting, also hurt my ego...I am jealous, this is just too good.
  
  
• On Tuesday, December 7, 2004, Six-Out (1604) wrote:
  
  When it's over, and you're there, you have the rest of your life. You've made it through so much, you can make it through this too.
  
  
• On Tuesday, December 7, 2004, AlluringDescent_darkbride (698) wrote:
  
  I am so sorry that you are going through this. I can feel your pain through every line that you write. The words cry for you. This is a very strong emotive piece.
  
  
• On Tuesday, December 7, 2004, sexually_sadistic (422) wrote:
  
  oh god, i know this pain too well. i have too cried these burning never~ending tears. very well written piece and i am sorry that you are going through this suffering! *hugs* ~sex~