I Never Could Breathe Alone...

i sway...
stagger
to my feet
weighed down
by my
apathetic
indifference

a weight
heavier
than the pained
look on your face...
the death-littered
ruins
of an already
tattered
soul,
and the rush
of these feelings
suddenly coming back
drag me
below
the surface
of
consciousness.

and i can't breathe...
i never could breathe alone...

i need the
safety
of being secure
in your arms again.
i always failed
to realize
what open arms
meant to me...
and now i feel the loss.
it hurts,
finally.
it hurts.