considering how things turned out

when you left
i couldn't have imagined
life without you
love
without you
you were not everything
but close

i would have spent
days
dreaming of a way
to catch your tailwind
in my sailboat
and keep up
with your siren song

but i was never meant
for the waves
yeah
cause you held oceans
in your eyes
and your heart
made me
seasick

now
i'm grounded
and i'm finding
i can pull
strength
out from places
i never knew
i harbored

i am loved
by lips that whisper
to me sins
i've yet to experiance
leaves me tingling
and wanting
more

i am sheltered
in earthy eyes
and skin
soft as the soil
that embraces the seeds
of beginning

i embrace my new life
my seed
and thank the stars
i wasn't attractive enough
or cool enough
for you

oh yes
i'm glad
i'm his fair skinned beauty
glad he finds pleasure
in the way my eyes
tear up in joy and pain
glad he makes time
specially for me
and that when i need a hand
his envelops mine

but that
is not
the point
of my happiness

now


i'm good enough
for
*me*



and when i smile

for once
i truly
mean it