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did i seriously wake up for *this*? by Bast
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did i seriously wake up for *this*?

By Bast

i want to be able to say
it's not me, it's you
but i still have my own
self doubts
and i still feel
like maybe i wasn't good enough
to make you want to stay.

i still wonder
what she has that i don't
why you're eager to spend
your weekends
in her bed
and yet seem reluctant
to make a plan
to see me

you still say you love me
keeping me confused
keeping me wondering
and i can't
just can't
keep feeling this way

i can't understand
how you love me
and what we have
is something casual
casual love?
does it work that way for you?
can you write off the people
you love
so easily?

i don't get it

i guess
you love her
you treat
the ones you love

there for a cuddle
when you remember
to brush off
the dust bunnies

and i've said this all

breaking up with you
is going to be
like eating my vegetables-
i don't want to
i wish i didn't have to
but i know
that it's good for me.

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Copyright 2004 Bast
Published on Wednesday, June 2, 2004.     Filed under: "Poetry"
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  • A former member wrote: ::crunches some broccoli:: "i guess either you love her or.... abandoned stuffed animals" quite a barb to those lines. penetratingly incisive writing as usual.

  • Mademoiselle_Minx On Thursday, June 3, 2004, Mademoiselle_Minx (112)By person wrote:

    *feel like this?I know its not what you want to hear.But a time will come when you'll think fck it I cant take it anymore+you'll walk away.And it'll be a v good decision to do so.

  • Bast On Friday, June 4, 2004, Bast (780)By person wrote:

    :) thankee.

  • Mademoiselle_Minx On Thursday, June 3, 2004, Mademoiselle_Minx (112)By person wrote:

    kitty.Its hard to do,cos if your like me you'll love when your together.But then if he makes you sad...is it really worth it?I remember looking into my mirror crying and thinking that before I decided to end it.Is anyone worth it if they make you feel lik

  • Mademoiselle_Minx On Thursday, June 3, 2004, Mademoiselle_Minx (112)By person wrote:

    *feel the lonliest person in the world.I too couldnt stand the thought of other girls with him, so I chucked him.And Im no longer crying because the thing that was causing my tears is now long gone.Onto the next poor bugga who'll have him I say.Walk away

  • Mademoiselle_Minx On Thursday, June 3, 2004, Mademoiselle_Minx (112)By person wrote:

    Hmmm...yeah like i said before had this kinda thing so I ended it.It seems to me maybe he means more to you then you do him?In which case your going to continue to get hurt.So finish it.Better to be alone because you can be in a relationship and still fee

  • Seraphic On Wednesday, June 2, 2004, Seraphic (242)By person wrote:

    some good "girl power" advice might be good about now, but it's too heart wrenching...that last stanza, something painful yet nicely put :) *~seraph~*

  • Lynaes On Wednesday, June 2, 2004, Lynaes (889)By person wrote:

    Absolutely heart-breaking, I could this so much as I read through, the last stanza was seriously gut wrenching.. Sad, in such a beautiful way. Amazing work. ~L

  • worm On Wednesday, June 2, 2004, worm (123)By person wrote:

    don't sweat the small stuff! if he can't see you for who you really are then fuck him! and besides if he is cheating, you don't need him... now or next week!

  • Bast On Thursday, June 3, 2004, Bast (780)By person wrote:

    it's not cheating... how do i put this? i love him, he says he loves me, and we have a casual relationship. we're both poly. it's not that- it's the lack of time for me cause of his preferance.

  • murder_in_clubland On Wednesday, June 2, 2004, murder_in_clubland (439)By person wrote:

    Yeah sometimes assholes need to be dumped. great write hun~ss

  • Mistress Shadow On Wednesday, June 2, 2004, Mistress Shadow (266)By person wrote:

    Currently being there, and past eating the vegetable and all, this a great.~T~

  • BleedSilver On Wednesday, June 2, 2004, BleedSilver (312)By person wrote:

    I liked the reference to veggies...I don't wanna, But I know its good for me...Such a heartbreaking piece, kitty...~Mikey

  • A former member wrote: this is so true, how us humans treat each other like stuffed animals, there to cuddle and when the softness wears off, we find another...yes the weekend will soon come

  • aXe FactoR On Wednesday, June 2, 2004, aXe FactoR (359)By person wrote:

    the pain reflected in this piece seems so real. it leaves me feeling rather depressed,cos i can kinda relate to this. u put ya point across so well,& so emotional. great write. :)

  • Bast On Wednesday, June 2, 2004, Bast (780)By person wrote:

    it is real. it's my words... bleeding because i don't even have the desire to do that anymore. bleh. the weekend can't come soon enough.

  • A former member wrote: .l.i.s.t.e.n. don't look at my frail existence just listen to my mind. don't turn your eyes away not tonight not ever again. opps sorry but i cant help it after reading me couldnt stop..great read

  • Bast On Wednesday, June 2, 2004, Bast (780)By person wrote:

    there's now way to make someone listen if they don't want to hear you. ::sigh:: thank you.

  • Johny_D_Lewis On Wednesday, June 2, 2004, Johny_D_Lewis (518)By person wrote:

    Ouch..this is so painful it almost brought a tear to my eye. I like the way you compared it to how a stuffed animal would feel. It used to be your fav, it always stayed by your side..until another one came along.

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