Lost Innocence

I wrote this almost two years ago, I still dont know why
I keep it posted. It was written about someone I once loved..



Growing hate inside myself
Growing hate for you
Pain ripping my soul away
if only you knew...

A secret locked away
Stored in A broken heart
Has finally been set free
but I still feel torn apart

My innocence was ripped away
on A cold October morning
I remember your sweaty hands
exploring were they shouldn’t have
As the intensity was rising

The pain of you inside of me
A frightful kind of ecstasy
and as my childhood bled away
I was yours and I had to stay..

To afraid to tell...because, I loved you still...

More comments:

• On Monday, October 30, 2006, beautifulfallenangel (88) wrote:
  
  we'll always love the very one that hurts us the most................beautiful
  
  
• On Friday, September 15, 2006, Reverend Machine (81) wrote:
  
  Your word choice is elegant and beautiful, to having put something this tradgic and sorrowful into words. I feel the pain that burns in this. Loving one so much that you dare only to cope in the chance they will still cast an affectionate glance.
  
  
• On Friday, September 15, 2006, Reverend Machine (81) wrote:
  
  Yours when needed. -Rev
  
  
• On Tuesday, December 13, 2005, LordBrosnian (57) wrote:
  
  Such a flower fallen to such caddish masquerades, learn to grow above such lulling pain, entrancing simple men like me to breath such acrid fumes...emmited from the stamens of your savaged poetry!
  
  
• A former member wrote: i'm sorry this happened. not many people could write about that, and make it bautiful.
  
  
• On Tuesday, April 5, 2005, LovelyAssassinx (188) wrote:
  
  Wow. Im sorry that this happened to you. But know that who ever did this, sooner or later it will catch up to them and they will suffer for the pain they have caused you. ~Unlucky
  
  
• A former member wrote: This was hard to handle, but you handled it well. ~Shane~
  
  
• A former member wrote: this is going to be my first favorite.. i don't know if that means anything to you.
  
  
• On Tuesday, June 22, 2004, darkangelXlll (163) wrote:
  
  my e-mail is on my profile lookin foward to talkin to you. ~darlin
  
  
• On Tuesday, June 22, 2004, darkangelXlll (163) wrote:
  
  this is the worst thing that could happen to anyone and im extremly sorry it had to be you..its hard to write it out and some how you did and with that broke many people's heart. just wanted to let you know you can dp-mail me or mail me anytime(my e-mails
  
  
• A former member wrote: wow sorry it took me so long to read. this was great. and I'm sorry that it had to happen to you.
  
  
• On Monday, May 31, 2004, Johny_D_Lewis (544) wrote:
  
  poor babe, *offers hugs*
  
  
• On Sunday, May 30, 2004, girlafraid (559) wrote:
  
  this really demonstrates how someone who goes through this can have mixed emotions about it...powerfully conveyed..very good
  
  
• On Tuesday, May 25, 2004, Instant Insanity (657) wrote:
  
  :-( I can do is sit and stare
  
  
• On Monday, May 24, 2004, aXe FactoR (395) wrote:
  
  gave me a poignant feeling after reading this. grippingly sad. very nice write on this. :)
  
  
• On Tuesday, May 4, 2004, Heart of Stone (27) wrote:
  
  Wow! This is brutal yet striking. The way you make it flow is beautiful. The truth in the poem is painful. You can feel it. Awesome.
  
  
• A former member wrote: I love this-- So much that I can feel your pain.. Your words pierced me like a shard of glass gouging all the way through my body.. ºLucifielº
  
  
• On Tuesday, April 27, 2004, Beautiful Scars (221) wrote:
  
  Yeah, I think he should die to..-fairy-
  
  
• On Monday, April 26, 2004, WinterGrave (304) wrote:
  
  whom ever tha person was should die. nice write.~~~Grave
  
  
• On Sunday, April 25, 2004, murder_in_clubland (450) wrote:
  
  this dug a hole in me a deep one. . . i hope your okay. . .~ss