Broken Promises

i saw you this morning.
hanging from my light fitting.
impossible?
well i saw you.

i saw your face.
empty.
blue lips and deadened stare.
those eyes that i loved so much.
dead.
staring straight through me.

and just like they told me,
needles
on the floor.

and just like they told me,
arms cut open.
staining my floor a deep shade of red.

those eyes...
just like they told me,
dead.

i saw you this morning.
arms hanging lifelessly by your sides...
grey skin stretched over your bones...
you looked even thinner than i remember you...

i wanted to check
to see if you still had my scar.
if you still had that tattoo
paul did on your shoulder
when we were drunk.

i wanted you to talk.
i wanted to ask you so much.

i wanted to know
what it was like...
those last few seconds....
what went through your head.

blue lips and deadened stare.
those eyes that i loved so much.
not blue anymore...
just grey.

those eyes....

just like they told me
i saw you hanging there.

i know now i'll see you again.
but i know it won't be okay.
i know the ending now.

i know we won't be alright...

but you promised me....

• A former member wrote: i really enjoyed reading this, it's very deep. great write.
  
  
• On Wednesday, February 11, 2004, knightmirror (394) wrote:
  
  i'm speechless.thank you so much for sharing your pain.fantastic write.
  
  
• On Saturday, January 3, 2004, Jaded Jezzabelle (359) wrote:
  
  Im so sorry for your pain...the emotion that comes crashing through in this has got to be from some place real.....you captured the hollow emptiness that only losing a loved one can bring
  
  
• On Friday, December 26, 2003, purr_verse (1320) wrote:
  
  a very moving piece. purr
  
  
• On Thursday, December 25, 2003, suicideseason (1906) wrote:
  
  ok...i'm back... the sadness that oozes from this dirge of a poem is on par with the cure's immortal album "disintegration".nice,emotional write.i really like it!~season
  
  
• On Wednesday, December 24, 2003, Methos (142) wrote:
  
  vacant, this is amazing! a very black and cold work that tingles my spine when i read it. very sad, with miles of depth. I enjoyed it. -Methos
  
  
• On Wednesday, December 24, 2003, suicideseason (1906) wrote:
  
  wow...i'll return when i'm no longer reduced to 3 letter exclamations.~season