The End of Innocence

I open my eyes to try to see
But I’m blind to the world outside
I open my ears to try to hear
But all I have is silence inside

I open my heart to try to feel
But emotion is lost in a dream
I open my mouth to try to speak
But all I can do is scream

And I’m dying to be alive
I’m dying to live
I ache to be without pain
I ache to feel
I’m grasping for another chance
To be what I need to be
The person that I am inside
The person I want to set free…

I awake to a consciousness
That I will suffer once again
I awake to a solitude
Of a life without one single friend

I awake to a world that I don’t love
To a world that wants me dead
I fall into a preprogrammed delusion
And fall back into the abyss of my bed

And I’m dying to be alive
I’m dying to live
I ache to be without pain
I ache to feel
I’m grasping for another chance
To be what I need to be
The person that I am inside
The person I want to set free

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The little girl is crying
A tear-stained face of blue
The little girl has given up hope
For what else can she do?

I want to comfort that little girl
That little girl so dear
The tender loving heart of a child
But it’s me the little girl fears

And she cries out to me to change
Don’t be what I hate
Don’t leave her here dying, all alone
Don’t give her over to fate

That little girl is fading fast
But she’s holds her one last breathe
And whispers don’t forget too soon
You’ve witnessed childhood’s death

I don’t want to live
In a cold cruel world alone
I don’t want to lose
The only friend I’ve known

But all things pass and so shall she
To mark my childhood’s end
So I say goodbye to my childhood dreams
And to my only friend

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I’m dying to be alive
I’m dying to live
I ache to be without pain
I ache to feel
I’m grasping for another chance
To be what I need to be
The person that I am inside
The person I want to set free

But the innocence has died
And I fear I must fight by myself
Cause the life that I’ve led thus far
Has retired to a dusty shelf

But the world is so scary and lonely
And I’ve forgotten the things I once knew
I know everyone has to grow up sometime
I just hope I have the strength to pull through

• On Thursday, April 12, 2007, anakronistik_me (33) wrote:
  
  wow...just wow.
  
  
• A former member wrote: [!]wicked awesome peice! bravo[!]
  
  
• A former member wrote: I think this about sums up where I'm at right now. I'm fighting but I don't think I'm winning and more than being sad it just pisses me off. Very awsome write. ~Ryan
  
  
• On Saturday, December 6, 2003, manunkind (84) wrote:
  
  im dying to be alive. very powerful. i think that everyone who has commented before me has pretty much sumed it up. nice work
  
  
• A former member wrote: Very powerful. Great transitional message. Loved reading it. Wonderful write.
  
  
• On Wednesday, December 3, 2003, Choronzon (219) wrote:
  
  I love this poem.
  
  
• On Saturday, November 29, 2003, SilentStalker (1255) wrote:
  
  ...whoa...where did that come from...? This is amazing, Fawn...I 'm still in awe...wonderful... -Darun
  
  
• On Friday, November 28, 2003, The Fallen Angel (272) wrote:
  
  i love it! powerful my sweet...with wisdom comes sacrifice, the child of innocent ignorance is lost...but in turn,a powerful woman is wut you have become+Fallen One+
  
  
• On Wednesday, November 26, 2003, Alanarchy (1487) wrote:
  
  I can't think of anything nice enough to say, so I'll just say "Wow" and leave it at that.
  
  
• On Wednesday, November 26, 2003, xX pretty vacant Xx (77) wrote:
  
  this seriously did kick ass. the emotion all the way through it was great and it was just really powerful. you got the feelings across perfectly.
  
  
• On Wednesday, November 26, 2003, OLd SouL (768) wrote:
  
  wow, this was sooooooo good. This happens to be something I'm going through right now. The repeating verse is killer. Thank you for sharing. :::OLd
  
  
• On Wednesday, November 26, 2003, Lemons (55) wrote:
  
  A very powerful piece. Nice write.