This Isn't Forever

I feel your hand explore my thigh.
And, I close my eyes.
Letting this feeling take me away.
Living in the moment.
Just my heart beat rattling to the tune
you choose to play.

It makes me breathe a little easier.
there is no forever involved.
No death to us part.
No jealousy and all those petty lies.
Just your mouth against my skin.
My legs wrapped around you.

I'll bring you closer to me.
In a way that only you could explore.
My breath hitches as I rest my head on
your chest. I could lie like this until the
sun goes down, and the moon waves goodbye.

You make me feel a happiness.
It's unexplainable.
It's not complicated or tied.
It's not a promise.

It's just simplicity.
Maybe, I could want more.
From the way your hand wraps around mine.
Sometimes your fingers tighten, and so do mine.
I love falling asleep wrapped around in your arms.
Feeling protected.

Feeling free.
Like I'm falling.
Falling so blissfully.

I don't need anyone to catch me.
No knight in shining armour.
This doesn't need to have a happy ending.
Maybe, I could feel something for you.

It probably wouldn't be forever.
I'm not worried about you breaking my heart.
Or tarring me apart.
We're not that kind of couple.

I love how I want you.
How your skin seems to melt every particle.
I love just soaking in your company.
Being me, being unfiltered.
My voice has come back again.

Your slowly healing me.
Or letting those wounds disappear.
You occupy my mind.
Wrapping me in confusion.

I'm trapped in suspension.
Trapped in emotions that I never felt before.

I'm not quite sure what this could be.
I don't want to think about it.
Don't want to spoil it.

Not when we make love.
Or when your hand finds mine.
Not when you rest your head on my shoulder.
Or when we say goodbye.

I don't need forever.
Or promises.
Or odes of love.

I'm just trapped in this moment.
Of your mouth against my neck.
And my fingers wrapped in your hair.
As we lie in this one stilling moment.
Our hearts pounding.

Maybe, it could be something.
But, it could just be this.

• On Tuesday, July 28, 2009, Scarrzz (217) wrote:
  
  Maybe I should have been more like you. It might have kept me from dying inside. There is both a lightness and a depth to the thoughts. I'm too numb to feel them anymore. I hope it's still working for you.
  
  
• On Monday, July 6, 2009, FallenSky (55) wrote:
  
  So many things happen in the brief passage of a single moment, it can be hard to get a grasp of them all at once, but you've done a wonderful job of finding them and writing them down.
  
  
• On Monday, July 6, 2009, Moonflower (431) wrote:
  
  i really enjoyed this. =]