I Love EVERYTHING About You

When I told you I loved everything about it.
I meant it more than you could ever know.
I would cherish the dark creature lurking in your heart.
The one filled with hate, rape, menace.
The cold hearted killer that breaks my heart into pieces.
I told you I hated you,
Despised you.
Loved you.
Until I felt everything about me being destroyed.
I want to leave you.
To hold you.
To keep you close until the lights go out.

I want forever with you.
I want never.
I want the moment when your heart breaks.
And your tears fall.
I want to be there when you smile.
When your laughter fills me with joy.
And when your sweetly bitter words fill me with disdain.
I wanted you to be perfect.
But, I know you are deeply flawed.
Deeply scorned.

I want to bury you,
To marry you.
To carry your child.
To be the defect in your lungs.
Hurt me?
Please me?
Hate me?
Love me?
Need me?
Displease me?

Control my heart then break it.
I want that ground-shaking.
Love-making heart-stopping regret.
Of your heart locked against mine.
In the funeral tune of forever and ever.
And so on.
You make me bitter.
You make me kind.

You make me wanna die.
You make me live.
I want to lie about you.
Tell the truth about you.
Kiss you.
Abuse you.
Tease you.
Torture you.

Touch you.
Touch you with my fingers.
Breaking the strands of your hair.
As I lay my kisses and tears on your flesh.
Only you could make me feel this way.
Only you can awaken the dark side.
The evil side, the wickedness.
The tasty seductress.

Cheat on me.
Be faithful to me.
I'll love you still.
I'll love you until I lie dead.
Within my grave, within the universe.
Within time, my love will only grow.
Will only falter time after time again.
Take me.
Force me.
Confuse me.
Embrace me.

Tell me your sweet beckoning lies.
Tell me the bitter damned truth.
I lie in bed.
hating each moment, I think of you.
Loving each thought that tingles.
That makes my heart swell and die.
I'm dying.
Crying,
Exploding.
Falling.

Deep within this miserable well.
I told you I loved you.
I told you I needed you.
I felt bitter towards you.
I told you, I didn't need you.
Couldn't want you.

We were friends.
Lovers.
Soul-mates.
Enemies.
Engaged.
Dismayed.
Broken.
Whole.
Married.
Dead.

We were everything.
You were everything.
You didn't mean a thing.
I hated your smile,
The silly goofy way you look at me.
I loved that your mouth looks perfect.
And, the way your body moved.

I devoured you.
Was disgusted by you.
I wanted to burn you alive.
Consume you within me.

Take my will.
Take my sanity.
Take my tongue.
Break me,
Tare me,
destroy me.
Turn me inside out.

Tell me I love you.
And never mean it.
I love you.
Still.
No matter what.
No matter what happens.
My heart will despise.
My eyes will be swollen.
My fingers will be broken.
And, I'll be lying here.
Wanting your touch.

Wanting your scent.
Scattered along my broken corpse.

Love me.
Hate me.
Need me.
Abuse me.
Tell me.

All those sweet lies.
All those beautiful truths.

Break me.
Break me until I die.
Until I hate every single thing.
I love about you.

When I told you.
I loved EVERYTHING.

I don't think you understand.
I hate everything too.

• On Wednesday, March 11, 2009, Joey (44) wrote:
  
  I like haha. i like =) five stars
  
  
• On Wednesday, March 11, 2009, heartdripsblack (681) wrote:
  
  agrees w SS. simply wow. ~ hdb.
  
  
• On Tuesday, March 10, 2009, SilentStalker (1244) wrote:
  
  ...can't have one without the other, sometimes...that's the funny thing about passion...the two extremes are almost always present, and those that are sensitive enough to it to feel them both at the same time live the most chaotic life known to humanity...I should know; I tend to do the same thing...