Today i did my taxes. I should get like a 400 dollar return. I just can't stop thinking about Rebecca, I would quit this job tomorrow but I wouldn't get to see her as much as I want to. I wish I could spend the rest of my life with her. I havn't been excersizing as much lately, actually not once in the last two weeks. I really need to start exercising again, but i can't affor groceries. I'm preparing to move to Vernal(Utah) for a summer job in the oil fields, to pay off my debt, and to save money for college. The only thing holding me here is Rebecca, and I don't know if she even cares about me. I only wish I knew, I would give so much just to know how she feels. I don't know why I even bother with her, I don't think she would ever have a relationship with a guy like me. She is kinda funny, she doesn't let anyone touch her. I want to give her the first kiss i will ever give. I don't know what else to say, I called her everyday this week, I think that I'm being annoying, so I'm not going to call her again until she calls me. I don't want to give up yet on this though, because when I pray about it, I don't feel like I'm playing a losing game, for the first time ever.

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