ugly ugly dark and dirty
neon clock screams 11:30
someone's been crawling up my insides again
and i woke up with this dirt lining my mouth
it hasn't been two hours
since i saw your shadow out the door
[where shadow equals the number of times i felt cold beneath your lips]
already i'm awake
and grinding my teeth
trying in vain
to chew you out of my veins
goddamn you and your hypodermic kisses
and this
GNITSUGSID|DISGUSTING
NOITCELFER|REFLECTION
GNITAE SI|IS EATING
EVILA EM|ME ALIVE
crawl from that gutter of a bed
skin full of bottle caps and residues
hair in tangles and pinned up with broken leaves
fine pebbles are my only jewels now
the apples in my cheeks once merely bruised, now rotted away
gape at the zombified
wretching writhing mass
of massless, weightless nothing
that could only be called
a me
with bitter laughter to accompany
only ice in the mirror
stars have all gone
blind-eyed preoccupied
with the fall of someone else's god
the abandonment of my only known hope
knees scrape
scream rape
the corner beckons
and i reckon
tonight, morning won't becoming
got my nightgown all dirty for this shit
think i
en route to the bathroom
can't force up what wasn't swallowed
you're only lingering in the backs of my eyes
only lingering in the backs of my eyes
roughskinned floor
smells deep of wood and filth
there
across the room
lies my
................................ .........................r...i...b.....b...o.....n.
why did you twist it in your hands?
© 2005 doll on the rag
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