anth.

he wasn't
a streetwise cat
.
an alley/gutter lover
.
.
just a boy pretending not to be
wrapped around something more exquisite
we all knew was there
.
.
.
i papered him up in a thousand letters
each one failing a little more
.
(in vain, and vain to think i could succeed)
.
.
but i'll try one more time
if you'll humor me:



you make my fingers itch for a cigarette
because i want to choke
on something beautiful
.
the same way
a dozen tiny sparrows
thrum relentlessly against my ribs
as words slip from your sighs
.
.
.
never been one to know
when the sandpaper comes
.
(these scraped knees bear proof)
.
but you took it to my heart
with gentle thumbs and rough eyes
slowly working back layers
of bruised and tender
self-flesh
.
.
and heaven help me
if i know what to do now
other than
.
let my eyes linger greedily
.
put my hands to the plexiglass
.
.
and watch
(it only reflects my half-worth)
.
.
and wait
(as though i've never drawn breath)
.
.
and hope
(maybe someday)
.
.
.
.
.
you could
forgive my misinterpretations
of your every-other comma
.
and you could
overlook my hesitance
to give up glass words
at your bone-marble altar
.
(they glimmer so hollow in firelight)
.
.
(and they shatter too soon)
.
.
.
i've made nothing of you
that isn't already
.
.
just unveiled
a mirror
long overdue
for sun
.

• On Friday, September 23, 2005, not an addict (45) wrote:
  
  ceci ve tal...
  
  
• On Friday, September 23, 2005, doll on the rag (206) wrote:
  
  i remember the first time i read that. title of an email. and i still don't know what it means. i won't ever, will i?
  
  
• On Wednesday, September 21, 2005, Anth (1438) wrote:
  
  a terrible day of working.and then i come home to this, id never have guessed what it was you had for me, its the most perfect thing
  
  
• On Wednesday, September 21, 2005, Anth (1438) wrote:
  
  i feel so humbled and i cant know what to say but my appreciation for this is , well, its something ill always treasure (is it ok if i add this to my book)with your name of course
  
  
• On Wednesday, September 21, 2005, Anth (1438) wrote:
  
  ... a poem which ill always read to remind myself never to give up, and of you whos poetry and now this is etched into my heart,
  
  
• On Wednesday, September 21, 2005, Anth (1438) wrote:
  
  i wish i could comment better ...the words are utterly perfect, thank you so so much for this
  
  
• On Wednesday, September 21, 2005, snowdrop (2148) wrote:
  
  ..exceptionally lovely.
  
  
• On Wednesday, September 21, 2005, Solace (1273) wrote:
  
  *nods* Beautiful...