I don't understand
Where did my mother go?
She was here just before
Now she's gone
I cry out for her
And I listen for her footsteps
Her soothing voice
Her loving touch
All I hear is silence
All I feel is air

I don't understand
Why is Daddy so mad at Mommy?
People that love each other don't fight
Mommy and Daddy never fight
Why are they standing in the hallway?
The hallway is for walking
Not standing
Not fighting
Shouts, yells
A slap across the face
I crawl away
I don't want to see

I don't understand
Why do they hate?
Why is mom leaving?
Why must they fight
Again
On the phone
In the office
Standing in the hallway
I crawl away again
Back into my mind

I don't understand
Why do I see counselors?
I'm not to one upset
Why is this my life?
I'm only a kid
I shouldn't have to be the one
My sister shouldn't raise me!
My mother! My father!
Where have they gone?
And why do I have to choose?

I don't understand
What is happening to me
Why do I shake?
Why am I still hurting
So many years past
Why must tears stain my pillows
Why does my sanity
Depend on a pill
Please, tell me!

I don't understand
But I may in time
Until then I must hold on
I will remember your mistakes
And learn never to be like you
I will live out my purpose
My reason for my past
Even if I don't understand

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