pressure build around me
collage gets on top of me
friends turn there back on me
pearents "miss understand" me
rumours suround me (for doing something nice)
people lean on me
teachers try to push me
girlfriends family hates me
mates g/f dreams of me (try explaining that one)
crying eyes burn me
weight training kills me
fuel prices bust me
caffine sustains me
cigarettes escape me
and you all insult me

NOW LETS VENT

i sit in my room at night with my head racing
i go out to the lounge room and begin pacing
my thoughts trying to proccess the life i'm facing
crackes appear on the outside of my caseing

i sit at the computer and let my fingers run
words of hate and stress fall from the tips
i start to feel better about my self
slowed breathing with a cigarette pressed to my lips

but then i read a rant about smoking
pnumonia sets in as winter is fading
i quit my addiction due to the pain i'm feeling
physical in the end but mental beggining

now when i pace at night i can only breathe the oxygen
but it feels better now my lungs are clear
my mind however seams to be pounding
chemical imbalence returns i fear

i sleep less these days now i have to drive
150km each day just for my brother to survive
drinking lost his licence but not his job
so i drive him as my head throbs
headaches from lack of sleep
my sanity i try to keep

constant homework, constant work, constant torment, constant stress, constant driving, constant training.

ohh did i forget that bit?
basketball twice a week

getting up at 5 each morn
getting to sleep with 5 hours to dawn
chemistry, physics, and math make midnight my bed
no amount of codine stops the pounding in my head

vent my stress
survive anouther day
you may not like it
but this is my way
yes i'm whinning
this i don't regret
this is me, this is a good as i gets

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