directed at justina

so you want to die?
sucking down your next high?
breaking vessels in your nose?
dealing your liver wicked blows?
acting like you really wouldn't care?
ignoring warnings from someone thats been there?
i thought you were far better but i guess i was wrong!
because you say this is soemthing you have wanted for so long?

did i waiste my time trying to know you?
simply to watch do as i do?
watching you make a huge mistake
trust me! addiction is no "peice of cake"
it something holding your mind so tight
you give in to it without a fight
letting it drain your life away
i never wanted you to end up that way!
i want more for you then life gave me
i wanted you to leave this earth free!

but hey what would i know, i'm just some dumb guy
and all i do is cheat, use and lie
why should you listen to someone like me?
you will be whoever you want to be!
nothing i can do can effect your life
so fuck it, go cut yourself, here have his knife!
it's not like it hurts anyone else
to see what you do to yourself
it's not like a cared for you!
i'll just sit back and watch as you turn blue

i'll watch as you snort that line
and laugh, because deaths book is what you just signed
because thats all your choises will amount to
you'll be dead, cold, broke and a grey shade of blue
and regardless what you think i'll cry
for i trully believe you don't deserve to die
what you deserve is so much more,
why are you walking to that door?
turning the handle and turning the locks
welcome to pandoras box

justina, don't do as i have done
regardless how much people say it's fun
and as i said you don't need to listen to this
so i give you my goodbye kiss
i can't be a part of this stupidity
i'll turn away and pray for you nightly
all i can do it seams
because you want fast hands and long dreams
but as a the car crash add will say
it's only a come-down at the end of the day

and as crashing a car will do,
its not the speed but the sudden stop that kills you
and when you overdose on your pills
and the only thing you feel is your bodies ills
you will feel your head being torn apart
your attantion will be drawn to your heart
hearing you own beat begin to slow
the end is near is all you will know
no amount of help will save you then
don't do it, listen to me, as a friend

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