Bitching and wineing is all i hear.

fighting screaming and yet all it really is...
 
is simple little unimportant bitching and wineing.

All the anger the hate the rage all boiling deep inside.

Waiting....

All i can see is hate where love once was.

In a family in a relationship.

But all i see and hear is hate malice and violent rage.

As my blood starts to boil and freeze at the same time.

My inner demon bathing in it.

Soaking up every drop like liquid power.

Growing stronger with every yell every scream and violent act.

Waiting patently for me to crack and to give him his exit.

His way to control me and twist my actions to his will.

And hurt the ones close to me as well as those who hurt them.

And as i peer deep down inside i see him smiling up at me with his bloody fangs senceing his wait is almost over.

That i am starting to see from his point of view that i deep down i want to let him out to reak havioc.

To stop all the fighting and to silence the screems of hate.

Even if it means becoming the demon my self which i know is bound to happen some day hence the cocky little smile back at me.

And as i slip into the darkness of the night people look and say what is wrong with him why is he so fucked up.

Completly over looking the past of violence and abuse form infant hood.

And the way i was raised to be alone to find for my self and to not care about others.

And yet they don't see the reason i slid into the darkness isto become balanced.

To even out my angelic tendencey with the demonic feelings and urges i feel deep down.

And if only people would shut the fuck up and let me be.

I would not become the demon i know i am deep down inside of me.

( i know there is may flaws in this in being that it dosen't really flow to well and probly a few spelling mistakes. but i just had to get this out.for i fear the demon is starting to take control of me. and that i might like it.)

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