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I Was Once Beautiful

I was once beautiful
Many years ago
When I had a smile on my face
And there was love in my heart
No matter what people said
I was able to believe in myself

I was once beautiful
But I’ve fallen below
Into the whole of depression
Now I drape myself in garments
Of dark vinyl, leather and velvet
Desperately grasping for any hope

I was once beautiful
With happiness leading my life
My eyes would sparkle with delight
When I breathed fresh, clean air
And I’d leave empty plates
Those many years ago

I was once beautiful
Before all of the black
Or so I’ve been told
That I’m too dark for my own good
My prettiness is buried in a grave
Along with all of my self respect

I was once beautiful
I retained unmarked or untainted skin
Almost pale enough to be porcelain
It was lighted with a glow
A beautiful doll’s reflection
A future model for the runway

I was once beautiful
But now I’m just skin and bones
A full, almost untouched plate I leave
Starvation, I’m not able to find strength to eat
I live in the shadows, a hideous monster
An hopes of utterly disappearing

I was once beautiful
before I picked up a knife
And sliced apart my skin
Scarring my body forever
Now I must hide my features
Behind a cloak and masks of black

I was once beautiful
But now I only see ugliness
Through my dull and dying eyes

I was once beautiful
But I’ve burnt my body
And I’ve sliced my skin

I was once beautiful
But now I hide in shadows
And I shun any spotlight

I was once beautiful
Before I took anger out on myself
Because now I can’t see clear, any longer

I was once beautiful
Before I destroyed my face
Stained from crying to many tears

I was once beautiful
My innocent times prove this
But my childhood was stolen from me

I was once beautiful
That many years ago
Now I wonder, what has happened?
What truly has changed me so?

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On Wednesday July 9th, 2008, Circe Avalon (186) writes:

your a phoenix that can arise from ashes and shine glorious again. And although you've gone down the long road, it is still an adventure, and it is very beautiful to others no matter from whose perception it is gleaned. Your words are beautiful and well spoken. Powerful and descriptive.

On Thursday September 20th, 2007, An Expired Member (13) writes:

This hits very close to home, only I, was never this beautiful. With you, it's like as you're saying "I was once beautiful" , we can all still see how very beautiful you truly are.

On Saturday March 31st, 2007, An Expired Member (31) writes:

YOU ARE STILL BEAUTIFUL. Your soul is beyond discription, mere words cannot describe. if my dumbass know how to bookmark a profile, I'd bookmark this one. I love your works!!!

On Thursday January 18th, 2007, MindRape (889) writes:

i never left a comment on this?!?!?! i coudl SWORN i did!!! I know i bookmarked it the moment I read it *licks you* I was once beautiful too

On Sunday September 17th, 2006, Bluegirl (249) writes:

"I was once beautiful That many years ago Now I wonder, what has happened? What truly has changed me so" Nothing. You are still absolutely beautiful hun! And this work is just wonderful, too. Keep the ink flowing!

On Saturday May 6th, 2006, gbuff69 (212) writes:

i picture the ninth line reading "hole" of depression. that's how I envision it. very, very beautiful. gina

On Saturday May 6th, 2006, mywristshurt (525) writes:

this is in my favs forever.. you are the most beautiful writer, person and soul i think i will ever meet.. and this was extremely good

On Tuesday January 24th, 2006, Guillotine (228) writes:

after reading this, i still believe you are beautiful....

On Wednesday January 11th, 2006, xserratedsoulx (279) writes:

you probably changed yourself. it's so sad, the way things really work...i know, that's what happened for me, at least...i fell so far...but i was a well lighted decent, i thought destruction would make me beautiful... ~lauren~

On Monday January 9th, 2006, AHHH (243) writes:

lovely.

On Thursday November 3rd, 2005, Liz (407) writes:

I really liked this poem, the repetions and descriptions make it strong. The last six stanzas started to be redundant, though. I don't think that repetition is as good as repeating the one line.

On Thursday November 3rd, 2005, Liz (407) writes:

Also, you list several clues as to what you were before you "changed." It makes me suspect that you know exactly what happend, and so I wonder why you ask, at the end. If you don't know, tell us more from these clips, and let us guess.

On Thursday November 3rd, 2005, Jonas (867) writes:

nod.

On Wednesday September 21st, 2005, An Expired Member (57) writes:

I wish I had words to describe, it's like my self reflection in words.. You are beautiful, I'll tell you that, and I love the poem

On Tuesday September 6th, 2005, Tangle Box Tales (168) writes:

damn this hit hard. the over all feel of this is quite overwhelming. the pain and self disgust that you display here reminds me so much of myself in many ways. very well written. and btw...you are beautiful my dear :)

On Thursday July 14th, 2005, thornyrose (30) writes:

outstanding and well written...it is a great piece...i liked it very much....

On Saturday May 14th, 2005, An Expired Member (13) writes:

I absolutely love this poem. I fell the same way. I can honestly say that I feelo your pain

On Thursday May 12th, 2005, Serenity (600) writes:

So many people can and do relate to this. And this could not have been said better. Wonderful job :)

On Tuesday January 4th, 2005, The Crimson Queen (1248) writes:

I relate to this. beautiful write!!

On Sunday November 14th, 2004, Savannah (290) writes:

This is one of the best poems I have read so far.. I relate so well. It's most definately a fave

On Thursday May 13th, 2004, aXe FactoR (428) writes:

u are still beautiful, no matter what one morphs into, there's always some element of beauty :)

On Friday April 30th, 2004, An Expired Member (15) writes:

;alsdkfjpief;oiasdjjei;sodjgkjaopijoie;oasdfkljo;ieiasodifjkoejfrias;doifjkfldkfjoei....no other words...

On Thursday April 8th, 2004, murder_in_clubland (497) writes:

you amze me and you still are beautiful well from my perspective anyways....don't hide yourself you don't need to ~slave

On Tuesday April 6th, 2004, An Expired Member (23) writes:

that was beatuful...i can't even recallall the times people have told me i would be so pretty if i could just stop wearing black and if the scars and burn marks disappeared...*sigh*

On Thursday March 4th, 2004, Antony (44) writes:

A beautiful poem from I'm sure a beautiful person. I think you're going to get to the point where you won't want to hide anymore. xo

On Thursday February 26th, 2004, Lynaes (1129) writes:

Such a beautiful piece, affected me in a comforting way, as I can relate.. Definitely a favourite. ~L

On Sunday February 1st, 2004, Lemons (57) writes:

This poem is above anything I could ever say. But I love it.

On Saturday October 18th, 2003, Delphoid-Q (255) writes:

*Cries*.

On Monday September 1st, 2003, An Expired Member (5) writes:

you are still beautiful, as is this poem. i loved it, you put into words what i never could. you are very talented. keep up the good work.

On Sunday June 22nd, 2003, An Expired Member (13) writes:

i know this was written ages ago,but i just had to comment.This is a fantastic poem,it describes exactly how i feel about myself at the moment.This bought tears to my eyes.Thank you,Butterfly..xxx...

On Tuesday June 17th, 2003, An Expired Member (1) writes:

...i love your poetry....i wish i could write like you can.....and im not trying to kiss up....

On Tuesday May 6th, 2003, IceDragoness (251) writes:

This is a terribly beautiful piece, and like many of the others i can relate, just made me cry and touch my scars as i looked over some pics of me as a little kid.. ~Dawn

On Monday May 5th, 2003, An Expired Member (34) writes:

You couldn't have said this any better. I can truly relate and this is an awesome piece- keep writing!

On Friday May 2nd, 2003, An Expired Member (5) writes:

i can relate to everything that you said here. thanks you so much! i couldn't put what i feel into words, and you have done a wonderful job.

On Wednesday April 30th, 2003, An Expired Member (3) writes:

WOW! I love your poem and no matter what you say I think your still beautiful. Your pics are awesome ~~Lola~~

On Tuesday April 29th, 2003, An Expired Member (7) writes:

magnificent mantra, clinging to shards of beauty as the self descends, brava

On Monday April 7th, 2003, An Expired Member (25) writes:

wow, this is a beautiful poem. you captured my feelings well

On Saturday April 5th, 2003, Lady_Ahz (80) writes:

I find that both yourself and this poem are beautiful.. Very well done.

On Saturday April 5th, 2003, An Expired Member (2) writes:

I know how you feel. I have felt the same way many times. I still think you're beautiful.

On Thursday March 20th, 2003, An Expired Member (21) writes:

I have to agree your still beautiful, and I could relate to every word you wrote I know exactly what you mean.

On Tuesday March 18th, 2003, liquid_emotion (417) writes:

searching... You are going to find it... because you want to:)

On Tuesday March 18th, 2003, liquid_emotion (417) writes:

Good Lord!! I just scrolled up and saw your picture... gorgeous! No kidding, or I wouldn't say it. And from all the ones you put up... i think you know it too:) And cliche' as it may be... you're deep and insightful and that is so powerful and beatiful on

On Tuesday March 18th, 2003, liquid_emotion (417) writes:

it's own.

On Tuesday March 18th, 2003, ColdScaredAlone (121) writes:

you're still beautiful, as is your writing.

On Thursday February 6th, 2003, DoctorAsh (507) writes:

this is an amazing piece ... like the other comment lenders said ... it's a pity you feel this way .... you have gained all of my respects and sympathies ... truely wonderful expression ... direct and to the piont ... lovely write

On Thursday February 6th, 2003, An Expired Member (5) writes:

This is F*cking awesome. I loved it. You are still beautiful, whether you see it or not. But, definitly, keep up the good work.C-ya ~ Asheai

On Thursday February 6th, 2003, Dommi_of_Baphomet (112) writes:

someone once said, "poetry is the best words in the best order". i think u have accomplished that. i felt every word that was said, inside myself. nice work

On Thursday February 6th, 2003, An Expired Member (5) writes:

This is a great poem... you should write some more.... i am sorry that you feel this way....

On Thursday February 6th, 2003, An Expired Member (17) writes:

This poem made me cry. I can relate to it word for word. It makes me think of my life and I know EXACTLY how you feel. You couldnt have said these words any better. Great poem. Write more please.

On Tuesday August 26th, 2003, Silent_Raven (23) writes:

this is a beautiful poem, it reminds me of an old friend i had. thank you for this. *RAVEN.*

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