I feel just so lost. hopeless and lonely.
In trust I had found my solace,
but it all just slips away so tragically...



My heart feels swollen,
delicate, thread-bare stitches,
barely holding it together.
While silent sobs and imaginary tears
fill it full of melencholy.


In this night of nights, the sky is the abyss,
an absense of joy and light
and it blankets this tired world,
My world. So jaded and bitter,
when a friendly hand touches forbidden places.
As I move to turn away
from this unwanted touch, unneeded sight,
Laughter begins to fill my darkest places.

The world turns for a moment
Spinning in place, too busy to ever really change.
Years later and feelings older
I begin to hide the scars
behind a chipped and gleeful mask,
its twinkling eyes shall never falter.

Painted in color and swaying forward
the feeling is "naked" when the night
            gives way to day...
The tempo here may change,
but the dance will always stay the same.

Changing partners and saving face,
I move to dance with hope
but find another leering lustful face.
Touch me here I say,
and kiss me there,
I want this pain to keep its rhythm,
What was always known,
shall never go away.



Words cannot explain
the depth and pain
of this overwhelming shame...

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