I think that it is funny the things people tell themselves to get through the day…

 

You can tell yourself when a person dies…that it’s ok…because they go on to a better place…hmmm funny to me! If heaven is so special and so much better then this shitty existence on earth…then why are people afraid to die…sinners who believe in hell should be scared…saints should not…I on the other hand don’t know what to be! See I am scared for I have sinned, but what if there is no hell…. sin away, one could say, sin away… I am also wondering what happens after a person dies…. wouldn’t it be cool to kill yourself just to see what happens kills two birds at once…end your live, feel the blood, and see what happens…technically I believe all that happens is your corpse rots in the ground, feeds the bugs, and you as a person and as a soul cease to exist. Like before you were born…. there was nothing…. when we die I truly believe we will be nothing once again. It’s a crappy circle but I am left with nothing else to believe… I am lost in mind spirit and body…maybe I will have to kill the birds, maybe just maybe I will have to see…see if there truly is better place… People say if it is suicide you will be sent straight to hell…well if I call for god to forgive me for my sins and it happens..Then, just then maybe I will truly believe…

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