Sitting alone in my room,
the soft hum from the machine before me
all the sound in the dead silence of the house.

My fingers scattered frantically across a black keyboard
spilling throughts and words that my brain comes up wtih

I look up at the screen and my vision blurrs
tears begin streaming down my cheeks
though I know naught why.

"Dear Sister,
I love you no matter your pain
No matter your strife.
We fight horridly
And vow we hate each other,
but deep inside I love you,
deep inside I fight for you..."

The letter began to tear me apart as I typed it
swearing to forever clutch me,
but still my fingers pant heavily to finish the letter.

"Dear Sister,
I vowed when we were younger
that you would never know life as I did.
I vowed to protect against the world,
vowed to protect you from even me.
As you lie sleeping in your bed,
I hope you know I watched over you,
like the angels in heaven.
Every night I watched you sleep,
so that you could know rest..."

My heart is slowly breaking,
I am panicing to finish this letter,
trying harder then ever to let her know
that I care about her.

"Dear Sister,
many nights ago,
before you understood anything,
I vowed to keep myself alive,
to protect you.
To many times would have been easier to just end
To many times could I have just ended it,
but a vow is a promise,
and I promise to hold your hand..."

I finally break down,
unable to continue.
The innocence of my sister is lost,
she is no longer a young child,
and I know I cannot protect her forever.
But like a mother,
I can always try...

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