I watched you last night as you drove away
I wished you had not left yet I had something to say

Fear came upon me as you slipped out of sight
I knew right then it would be a long night.

I went back to our room and sat on the bed
and then the demons came waltzing into my head

I said go away and cracked a little smile
but it was obvious they'd be there a while

As I sat there just staring at walls
I began to reflect on what caused our fall.

Into my mind those memories crept
and as I realized all of my shortcomings I bitterly wept.


The tears kept flowing like an artesian well
I was seeing it all clearly now and I was in the pit of hell.

No ones fault but mine as that part goes

A time of reckoning had finally arrived
Into my deepest soul I now go

In this time of self reflection

I realized all the little things you had done to show your affection
and although not outright I made you feel some rejection.

Down my cheeks the tears again start to fall
I had broken your heart and not seen it at all

I saw clearly how we got to this place
and I look upon my deeds with utter disgrace


I am so sorry for the tangled webs I have spun
for all the damage I wish could be now undone.

It is hard to believe you held on for this long
Oh how I want to right all the wrongs.

You were a gift I had taken for granted
You should have woke me up to this
you should have ranted.

That is the only fault I found in you
to let fear of reprisal say what you need to.
  
Finally the night is over
I see it all clearly now

I have fought the biggest battle with my self and won
I am aware of all I had or had not done.

The walls are finally down
I fell in the waters but I did not drown
It has been very draining but I got it all out
and I am still alive I won the bout.

I watched you last night as you drove away
I wish you had not left yet
I had something to say

.......or so I thought.


After this long night of discovery and pain
I realize those words would be wrong and in vain

 
So here I am before you battered and Broken
these are the words that needed to be spoken.
 
I have decided to fully trust you today
so please my precious do not it betray.

At least we are not bitter
and we are still friends

but I am so sorry

our special little world

 came to an end

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