There's no beginning to the way I think,
There'll be an end on the day I repent,
Till then I'll just shower myself in sin,
Can't take the crap you seem to bring,
Emotionaly I'm a cripple who's been raped,
Sensible ideas are all that seem to matter,
My dreams make no sense to anyone at all,
I'll just remain an illogical enigma then,
I like being misunderstood these days,
It's the only thing that seems to make sense,
Everything else is too confusing,
I'm overwhelmed by self-loathing and egos,
I'm so damn cute I wish I was ugly,
Shatter my knees so I can't walk anymore,
I recently found all this walking pointless,
I have nowhere to go and nothing to see,
I'm overwhelmed by self-loathing and egos,
I'm so damn cute but you called me ugly you fuck,
Maybe I'm better off alone after all,
At least I know when I'm lying to myself,
The confusion should wear down soon in my head,
When I'm alone there's nothing to wind it up,
No keys made by voices and no way to get it started,
It'll wear down soon and then I'll feel better,
Oh god let it wear down soon so I can feel better,
My skin feels rough and I keep scratching at it,
Now it's bleeding but the blood seems dry,
And old marks don't seem to have the same effect,
They don't cause shock or releife anymore,
And I'm tired now and my head hurts again,
Won't all these mixed up thoughts and ideas just die!!
I can't take feeling like this,
Almost empty but with a hint of depression,
It teases and hurts and irritates all at once,
It's so fucked up it drives me insane!!
I'm overwhelmed by self-loathing and egos,
I'm so damn cute I wish I was ugly,
Like I am from the inside.

I can't find any beauty anymore.

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