To everyone whom here in dp I have shared some kind of moment with, I just wanted to make sure that I would be able to say this appropriately. Given the nature of this is of the rather grim sort, I just wanted to be sure it was said due to the drastic spectrum of things that can happen while I will be deployed with the 13th Marine Expeditionary Unit(MEU). I just wanted to express how much this site has meant to me for the last 3+ years I have been a member, and the people here have made it just that much better for me.

When I came upon this site, I was not the happiest person(if I can say that I was personable at all), and I came under the misconception that this site was all about getting out the darker more grim and morbid thoughts of life, so I pretty much used this as a means for therapy and considered it a cry for help of sorts, my last call or death rattle, since my only point here was to get my poetry out of the secret state it was in, and just that when I would finally cross that final line of life that there would be some kind of mark for me when it happened.

Time went by and slowly I grew to the point of talking with the people in the chatbox when it finally came around. Granted the time and mentality I was in I wouldn't figure people would come to accept me, due mainly to the fact I refused to accept them, and this led to the constant picking on me because I had no respect for life, or myself for that matter, then one night on this site I met someone who once went through some of the same stuff I had gone through, and had been in the state of mind I had always found myself in, they used to meet me on the site at a certain time and just chat with me, and they gave me some good suggestions on how to live. Suggestions of finding real help, and how to slowly grow back into being human.

If it weren't for that person I probably would've end up somewhere I didn't want to be, and if it weren't for that person I would've never known how to help others through this site or talk to others on this site about anything. Slowly all of these little factors made me grow and helped me to realize that the more you come to this site the more you really don't ever want to go. It became like my own little dysfunctional family when I couldn't get to my real one. Its just that no matter what or who you meet someone is having somekind of problems, theres constantly joking laughter and picking on people, and the incessant arguing about rather trivial shit.

And now that I have come to explain this site and its meaning, I want it to be known that I will miss this site and the many people on here whom I have come to know. And the very moments I may get to come on here while deployed I will, and I will do what I can to keep people updated and I will be sure to have some kind of way to be reached, like I do now, while I am deployed like my FPO/AP adress or if nothing else my military email address. But to put out the obvious and most grim part of this, this may well be my final goodbye due to my job. I will do what I can to stay alive and return safely, but there can never be a guarantee to how long or short ones life can be, hell I may trip getting out of my chair after finishing this and knock the monitor off and onto my head. and with that I want to put out some personal thanks to people.

Six-Out- Jon, it won't be the same without the humor you possess, and the constant thrashing of the newbies. I do want to thank you for making me feel better with the medicine of laughter if I can't do it upon a safe return. Thank you and take care.

Dommi- Mary, I will miss you immensely, and I really wish that we could've gotten to meet the couple of times I did make it out there, oh well we'll have to try harder if I return I suppose. I do expect to hear from you in some way shape or form while I'm deployed. Even if its only once via email, that will still brighten my day. Most of All I want to thank you for being there when I was down, and for letting me pretend that I cheered you up. You need to know I HEART YOU MORE. And with that Thank you for everything and take care.

Rain In The Willows- Kya, I will also miss you, your humor, and your constant willingness to help, and of course the constant flirting, I can't believe you're finally legal...err, I mean 18, maybe if I get back I will try to make a trip work out for us to finally meet, then again maybe its just better I wouldn't want to scare you being the creepy old man I am. I do want to thank you for the times of comfort and support you have brought me, and no assassinating the president for sending me away. with that take care and thank you for everything

Suicideseason- Tim you will be missed, your poetic genius, and your somewhat grim but senseful and helpful words and incites on life. I do thank you for your always boosting my poetic ego and getting me through those rough times.

Rachel- Rachel I will miss you immensely too, and the constant stabbing me for our retarded argument of whos uglier, we both know that I win that competition any day of the week and twice on sundays. In any case, I know you don't come around often anymore, but I do want to thank you for all the kind words and beatifully written verse you've shared with me.

Raven- Rhi, I will miss you mostly for our late night chats and I will do what I can to send the regards of the lemmings and zombies...thank you for helping me through the rough times when I've had them, and take care of yourself, when I get back hooefully I can still keep in touch with you and see how your forensics degree is coming along...Thank you for everything and take care of yourself.

NikesRain- Nikes, I really never could remember your real name, but thank you for all of your support, and even when you thought you failed me you didn't its just I am naturally stubborn, and will do my thing until I realize its not working. I will miss our talks about my issues, and I thank you immensely for dealing with them on a daily basis way back when. With that I bid you farewell, and to take care of yourself.

DarkPoet- Matt, only a couple times have I ever really talked with you, but both time were very inciteful, and I have always had a grudge because your username here was my pen name when I came here. Thank you for letting me utilise this site as long as I have, and this site means the world to me, as well as I'm sure it does for some others.

SilentStalker- Darun, Still don't know you all too well, but you've been there for some of my rough times, and you've helped me drastically with all the technology stuff and never picked on me for my massive numbers in the age catergory. Thanks for everything and I wish you the best in your life.

S.R.Parke- Its been some time, I can't remember your name, you probably won't read this, but if it weren't for you I would've lost my sanity long ago, our constant political debates were fun, and the joy it brought me to actually argue with someone my age, and who is well educated as well it was always fun and colorful. Thank you for everything.

DocAsh- Andrew, Well thank you for the cds, and thanks for all the other little things you've done for me, just because I sponsored you the one time, but how could I not, your talent is natural and wonderful. You will succeed in whatever you do, and you know just what to say at what time too. You may not think you made an impact but you have helped me in so many ways I couldn't begin to thank you enough.

And for the entire dp community- All of you have worked some kind of magic in my life whether you know it or not. If I didn't mention you don't worry I will be adding more thanks as time goes by. Its just I am running short on time for today, so don't worry there are more of you who directly impacted my life, and I will get to you in one way or another.

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