I tasted light dripping off sunrays at it nibbled at red cheeks.
The cold breeze stood its ground unafraid to be brutal with its uncomfortable chill.
I fished for a hand next to mine, trying to hold onto anything that was solid.
And found only a cold breeze trickling through the spaces between each finger.




A space that could never be filled.




I drove over that bridge today.
Realizing all the broken windows in the buildings.
Feeling the distant shards of glass circling my skin.
Touching every ridge with my imagination.







And I felt nothing.






It wasn’t November yet, but September sure had me fooled.
And I stared straight into cloud forming skies.
I was more distant from this reality than I ever thought I was.
It was the first time I wanted to think.







Think of anything that would let me know I’m still here.






But I fumbled at any forming idea.
And I said nothing.
And I breathed nothing.




I only wish you’d save me this air.





That feeble feeling floated through the air.
Like I was saying anything, and you were reading everything, while understanding nothing, while I understood all of it.
And I parted with the idea.
Contemplated nothing again.
And realized it was all a waste of time.





Although words mean everything.







I pressed the button that arranged colors into numbers.
And made the world a math ball of expression and algebraic equations.
You never added them up.






And I could never show you my solution.








I kept driving not knowing where I was going.
Just used to seeing the same tape replay over.
And I saw nothing, while seeing everything all over again.
And I found myself while not ever searching at all.
And I breathed air.
Tasted colors.
Felt lines on a piece of paper.
September fooled me well.






And I circled the glass around my wrist.
I climbed the building.
Reached the top of the bridge.
Searched for everything that lied deep in my soul.







&. At the end of it all.






I.







Felt.





















Nothing.

If you [Log In] as a member you can discuss this work with others