I feel so confused right now,
Not knowing what to think or feel.
My life has been turned upside down,
I don't even know what's real.

Everything I've cared about,
Has left and gone away.
One thing I cared about,
To me he did betray.

All I want is to be loved,
To always have someone there.
To have someone to snuggle up to,
To run my fingers through his hair.

To kiss his smiling face,
And hold his hand in mine.
To know that I am loved,
That's what I call divine.

To wake up with him near me,
As the sun begins to rise.
To cuddle next to him,
When the evening starts to die.

That's what I want out of life,
I'm not asking for much.
I just want a regular life,
If there really is such.

Why is it such a crime,
To be nice and sweet.
That's all that I am,
But I'm always beat.

Will I never get ahead?
Will I always get left behind?
Stuck in the muck my life is.
Stuck in the bump and grind.

Why does my life have to be so hard?
What lesson am I to learn?
What is this test I must pass?
What is it I have to earn?

What's bad about having a heart?
What's wrong with wanting to care?
I want to do all of those things,
But to me life just isn't fair.

It's almost more than I can handle.
I don't think I can take much more.
Soon I'll have no heart left,
I'll be just as unfeeling as a door.

Is this what you want of me?
For my heart and soul to be dead?
For when one goes, the other follows.
Wherever the first one lead.

First one will be gone,
And then the other,
With no place to go,
To get another.

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