(september 28, 2000)

I sit here alone again
Talking to the eyeless fish
They stare at me as if I were insane
But who are they to lay the blame?
Tired of their blank looks
I sigh and turn away
To the other side of the hall
Were my god is hung up on the wall
I tell him of the pain
And I think I hear some hope
But painted mouth smiles empty
And I just can’t lie anymore

So I ask the dark a thousand questions
And,throatless, it answers in my own voice
Far away the music beacons
Calling out in my own tones
I then step out on the balcony
To wish upon a star
That I’m sure must be up somewhere
Behind all of those gray clouds
And my heart once again fools me
And I sit still to wait for you
Till my body becomes numb
Reminding me quite suddenly
You are never to return
But how could I remember?
I’ve only been alone forever

Suddenly admist the music
There breaks in echoing silence
I don’t like the pressing sound
So I drift away to bed
Where it all might make some sense

The mirror kisses me goodnight
And wishes me sweet dreams
Between silk I’m finally at peace
And from far off I can hear
My voice singing me to sleep.

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