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I think I feel a bit too much
wasted my time on vanity
So scared I am of sickly touch
so scared of my insanity

I never thought I'd be like this
my body's left me crying
What you don't have you never miss
now parts of me are dying

Invisible was my disease
but now my scars are showing
if after death there's no reprise
I want to leave here knowing

that after all I've said and done
my mind's not gone to waste,
I've seen the moon eclipse the sun
I've friends I can't replace

There are machines to help me cleanse
the toxins raging through me
Lasers burn my pupil's lens
such pain to make me see

And if I reach out for your hand
to help me keep on fighting,
I hope that you will understand
if I find death inviting

And though I know I'm not there yet
these thoughts are in my head
See holes all through my safety net
where my body's life has bled

So now I have to wait to learn
what's in my life to fear
I'm scared that now there's no return
and death is far too near.

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On Tuesday May 15th, 2007, The Spiral Downward (389) writes:

Great Entry With An Even Greater Quasi-Message! Lovely Write!

On Saturday September 30th, 2006, urbanhumility (1356) writes:

you have given solace to some of my fear........well done.........urban

On Sunday May 22nd, 2005, rondant (76) writes:

nice work...Ronda

On Monday April 11th, 2005, An Expired Member (4) writes:

i don't want to say wow because everyone has said that...i would say....very exquisite, you make it seem death is more horrible then it sounds.very nice.

On Sunday November 14th, 2004, gothemite (398) writes:

wow i cant believe i havent read this one yet... awesomeness.. one of my favorites

On Friday November 5th, 2004, JustBnMe (60) writes:

yes, life is short so ya gotta live while you can, really lovely piece :)

On Sunday October 3rd, 2004, SamoneDrone (408) writes:

this poem flows so beautifully, and speaks such truth. it's lovely

On Saturday April 3rd, 2004, An Expired Member (1) writes:

Great poem..i can really relate to most of it. Keep up the good work!!!

On Tuesday March 30th, 2004, Mistress Morbid (594) writes:

Wow.... -Morb

On Tuesday March 30th, 2004, K_Love (691) writes:

Wow.. I feel this a great deal. This is a wonderful piece ~Kirsten~

On Friday March 19th, 2004, Mute Serenade (216) writes:

Flows wonderfully, i especially adore the last stanza.... ->Mayor of Chump City

On Tuesday March 16th, 2004, An Expired Member (1) writes:

This makes me hope all the more it isn*t that disease :( Kudos for you for having actually lived through it, I doubt I*d have the heart you do!

On Sunday March 7th, 2004, An Expired Member (8) writes:

I love it. Very good Poem all around.

On Friday March 5th, 2004, BoldSolitude (277) writes:

Man, I had to read this twice, it's the second poem of yours that is going onto my favorites

On Friday March 5th, 2004, BoldSolitude (277) writes:

I'm glad I became a member so I can express my gratitude for those like you that inspire me. This really spoke to my soul.

On Friday March 5th, 2004, girlafraid (579) writes:

i think this way too sometimes..."So now I have to wait to learn what's in my life to fear" like maybe living is more fright inducing that death....

On Thursday February 26th, 2004, nightshade (78) writes:

just know that i am willing to be your safety net your an outstanding person one i hope to even coming close to match i love your wrtings and this one will be a favorite

On Wednesday February 11th, 2004, Twilight (2102) writes:

i have always told myself that from vanity somes insanity. you can drive yourself crazy with criticism...just know that no matter what you do on the outside you are gorgeous as hell on the inside.

On Wednesday February 11th, 2004, Twilight (2102) writes:

trying to hang on to every second..hoping its not too late to enjoy life. taking advantage of every day [every moment]. your doing what some of us younguns shouldve been doing a looong time ago.

On Monday February 9th, 2004, cre (508) writes:

wow, this is a fabulous write . . one of the first I've read from you and I am not disappointed . . I love what you managed to express in such a beautifully written way. Nice job.

On Sunday February 1st, 2004, LoneWolf (39) writes:

Wow, fox, I really enjoyed reading this poem... it reminds me of things I've gone through and ways I've felt before. Keep up writing. ~*~Lone Wolf~*~

On Sunday February 1st, 2004, OLd SouL (837) writes:

Wonderful flow. Oh, fear is a wonderous emotion. It tells me I'm alive. I love it in sporatic explosions when my eyes start to glaze. Great job, hun. :::OLd

On Thursday January 29th, 2004, knightmirror (425) writes:

thumbs up,i enjoyed reading this,i'm sure you'll hear from me again

On Friday January 23rd, 2004, A Velvet Tongue (529) writes:

That last stanza just said it all, brought it home. The flow was right on time..Wow, Welcome to Dp I can see you are just as talented as your beautiful sister.. I cannot wait to read more!..*vel*

On Friday January 23rd, 2004, flying_fox (769) writes:

I wish I was as talented! Thank you so much. FF xx

On Thursday January 22nd, 2004, suicideseason (2144) writes:

...what a lovely flow...and very riveting..the last two stanzas made for a powerful ending.awesome!-tim

On Wednesday January 21st, 2004, AlluringDescent_darkbride (764) writes:

"I want to leave here knowing that after all I've said and done my mind's not gone to waste," I love these lines. And your flowing verse is awesome!

On Sunday January 18th, 2004, purr_verse (1437) writes:

the honesty and soul/fear/pain you have imbued this piece with is so deeply moving...you know i love it. purr

On Sunday January 18th, 2004, flying_fox (769) writes:

the fear is always there as you know, but as someone once said, 'feel the fear and do it anyway'.

On Sunday January 18th, 2004, capt_funguy (998) writes:

i read this one and the others , really beautiful , i look forward to more - funguy

On Sunday January 18th, 2004, flying_fox (769) writes:

Thank you so much Capt'n. It's quite a scary experience putting your works 'out there'...your encouragement is much valued.

On Sunday January 18th, 2004, Alanarchy (1599) writes:

"So scared I am of sickly touch so scared of my insanity"... This poem OWNED me. beautiful in its hopelessness. This is now a favorite.

On Sunday January 18th, 2004, flying_fox (769) writes:

Wow! This means a great deal to me. Thank you so very much.

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