I've been screaming at you for years
Begging you to take away my pain
If you're there you already know
It just happens to be you I blame
But...
I have to ask for a favor tonight
So if you happen to actually be there
Please, make my heart hard
Don't let me love, don't let me care
 
I'm tired of being sensitive in an insensitive world
I've lost two more friends to the pizo
And another to a gun wound
I'm tired of feeling so damn low
My best friend is drinking himself to death rather quickly
And he doesn't seem to notice these tears I shed
Please, I can't feel anymore, I can't do it
Too many times now my heart has bled
 
I know we abandoned one another, but if you're there
Would you do the honor of killing me inside?
Emotions are threatening to consume me now
I don't want to care when my cousin says she attempted suicide...
I don't want to love
And I don't want to hate
Rid me of all feelings, I'm begging
I've tried, I'm tired, don't make me wait
 
I've been screening my calls lately
And just staying home
They say I'm being anti-social and depressed
I say I'm closer to being numb when I'm alone
I don't know what else I can do
So please, if you're there
Make my heart hard tonight
I don't have what it takes to care...

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