tempting it is; For me to love you.
Existing feelings bring rage and hate
Wanting to love needing to hate.
If there was a choice, wich one would I choose?
I need to hate you, but want to love you.
I search for reasons to hate. Search and pick out little things, I try to find them.
Then you smile and I have to to love again.
Then I need to hate.
confusion rears its ugly head and again I am, knees locked to chest crying in pain.
Torn apart I am. You bring hate and love.
I love hate more than I love love.
The tears must stop.
I will always love you against my own.
Hate is my drive.
My hate will drive my love until I am once again knees locked to chest.
My fetal postion of life.
*kiss
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