ive tried the normal live
tried ditching the darkness
ditched the poetry ditched the wardrobe and decore
tried teaching my mind to stop being so... different...
when a thought entered my mind that was even slightly out of the ordinary...
i'd dismiss it. ive tried to become a different person
i didnt want to be little miss out of place misfit depressed..you know the stereotype.

i quit cutting.. that was about the only good thing ive done...
 that was stupid to begin with .. you cant imagine how lame i feel every time i see the scars
they wont go away you know.... its been what? nearly 3 years? whats wrong with me
i think they're still there for a reason
i think they're there to remind me... so i dont become someone i'd hate even more than who i was before.
i need to remember... at least for awhile.....

im in between.
i dont know who i am right now.
it's not a fun feeling.

got rid of my psycho ("i wear the pants in this relationship") boyfriend.
went backpacking overseas
fell in love in london.
when you write it down it seems like a fairy tale.
i dont know what it feels like.
doesnt even feel real yet .
fuck life sucks... haha
seriously though.. whats the point......

eh, i try to be optimistic...

but it gets to all of us sometimes, am i right?
probably most of the time if you're reading this on a "dark poetry" website.

i wonder how many people who have used this website have killed themeselves.........

or how many of them just wish they had the guts.......
feedback forum, or really nasty ones to




im gunna stop being..... whatever ....... i cant even think of a word for what im being right now......

emo?


how about... one too many alcoholic beverages..... thats what im being. ...




what??



yeah, i dunno....

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