sentenced to lonliness

my lonliness is not a state of mind.nor
is it a by-product of any depression.my
lonliness is not a lonliness void of
people.there are many people in my life.
this lonliness i own is not a form of
self-pity that has controlled the will.it
is not a lonliness i wear on my face.
indeed,it is very well hidden.in my deepest
inner most being i am lonely to the point
of being emotionally crippled.i am lonely
to the core of my exsistence and it has
crushed me as a person.my lonliness is
killing my two fondest desires...the
desire to love and the desire to give.
the desire to actually be loved by
another person died several years ago.my
entire being wants to give my love and
devotion to another person.that will
never happen and i have accepted it.there is
no person to love.i was predestined and
preordained to be alone.it is my fate.
it is my lot in life.i have completely
accepted it.the lonliness has defeated
me.it has taken away my desire to love.
all that remains is another night...alone.

• A former member wrote: i love it
  
  
• A former member wrote: wow.
  
  
• On Tuesday, July 10, 2007, carlosjackal (1799) wrote:
  
  Such a ring of truth to this. Excellent piece. -Carl
  
  
• On Thursday, December 28, 2006, MESUN (288) wrote:
  
  i feel i'm so close to that it scares me. i better get off my ass.
  
  
• On Sunday, February 5, 2006, xserratedsoulx (248) wrote:
  
  ahh...so desperate...it reminds me of a spanish poem, translated it says something about 'tonight i am just sad. nothing made me this way. and if i were somehwere else, or someone else, i would still be the way i am now.' ~lauren~
  
  
• On Thursday, June 16, 2005, Spiritus_Frumenti (365) wrote:
  
  this really hits me...i know this feeling all too well..-l-
  
  
• A former member wrote: I don't quite know if this is a poem but whatever it may be it I really really like it. The part where you have written it is your fate to be alone, I have caught myself saying this line many times. Beautiful expression ...
  
  
• On Monday, January 31, 2005, lordshadow (156) wrote:
  
  I don't know why no one has left any comments on this write. I love it (as much as anyone can love a poem about pure and utter loneliness...)