I open my eyes to try to see
But I’m blind to the world outside
I open my ears to try to hear
But all I have is silence inside

I open my heart to try to feel
But emotion is lost in a dream
I open my mouth to try to speak
But all I can do is scream

And I’m dying to be alive
I’m dying to live
I ache to be without pain
I ache to feel
I’m grasping for another chance
To be what I need to be
The person that I am inside
The person I want to set free…

I awake to a consciousness
That I will suffer once again
I awake to a solitude
Of a life without one single friend

I awake to a world that I don’t love
To a world that wants me dead
I fall into a preprogrammed delusion
And fall back into the abyss of my bed

And I’m dying to be alive
I’m dying to live
I ache to be without pain
I ache to feel
I’m grasping for another chance
To be what I need to be
The person that I am inside
The person I want to set free

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The little girl is crying
A tear-stained face of blue
The little girl has given up hope
For what else can she do?

I want to comfort that little girl
That little girl so dear
The tender loving heart of a child
But it’s me the little girl fears

And she cries out to me to change
Don’t be what I hate
Don’t leave her here dying, all alone
Don’t give her over to fate

That little girl is fading fast
But she’s holds her one last breathe
And whispers don’t forget too soon
You’ve witnessed childhood’s death

I don’t want to live
In a cold cruel world alone
I don’t want to lose
The only friend I’ve known

But all things pass and so shall she
To mark my childhood’s end
So I say goodbye to my childhood dreams
And to my only friend

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I’m dying to be alive
I’m dying to live
I ache to be without pain
I ache to feel
I’m grasping for another chance
To be what I need to be
The person that I am inside
The person I want to set free

But the innocence has died
And I fear I must fight by myself
Cause the life that I’ve led thus far
Has retired to a dusty shelf

But the world is so scary and lonely
And I’ve forgotten the things I once knew
I know everyone has to grow up sometime
I just hope I have the strength to pull through

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