“I’ve been so alone for so long”
I dreamt of you the other day
While you were lying next to me
I dreamt because I couldn’t have
What I saw before my eyes
“Forgotten by the world, forgotten to myself”
I dreamt because you were closer
Than I’ve let anyone come in a long time
Yet you were further away
Than I could stand
“Your effervescent eyes have awakened me, and brushed the dust away, but I knew you’d never stay”
I awoke to your head on my shoulder
Softly breathing in and out
And I realized
That was the most beautiful sound on this planet
“So I memorized the color of your eyes as I lost myself inside you”
I lost you again
And it hurts more than I’m willing to admit
It hurts more than it was suppose to
After all, didn’t we decide that this would never happen again?
“I miss, God, I miss, waking up beside you”
“At night I cling to you, I’m so afraid, afraid the day will come, when I’ll wake and find you gone”
I dreamt of you yesterday
Arms hugged around my chest
Because they had no where else to go
I dreamt of you and cried
“But you promised that you’d not abandon me, and you kissed my fears away”
I dreamt because you were farther away
Than I want you to be
Not only on a physical level
But I could no longer feel you…you
“But I woke up to that day”
I awoke shivering
I could no longer hear your breathing
Or feel your heartbeat
I just closed my eyes and willed you back again
“But I memorized the way our eyes would meet reflected in the bathroom mirror”
But I’ve lost you again
And it hurts more than I’m willing to admit
It hurts more than it was suppose to
After all, I’m not suppose to care
“I miss, God, I miss waking up beside you”
I just don’t want to miss you
Tonight, tomorrow, or ever
I don’t want to feel you
When you’re not really here
“I’ve been so alone for so long, I forgot how much it hurts, to wake up so alone”
And I don’t want to be lonely
When I know that I don’t have to be
But I don’t have a voice in this matter
The world is what it is
And the world has determined
That you are to be away from me
“But I memorized how warm your body felt, as you lay half asleep beside me”
I’ve lost you again
But how do you lose something
You’re not even suppose to have?
Somehow I did
“I miss”
And it hurts more now
Than it did 5 seconds ago
“God, I miss waking up beside you”
The quoted parts are lines from “Waking Up Beside You” by Stabbing Westward.
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