I drank myself to an utter state of honesty
Found myself standing in front of absolute truth
There I left behind deceit too complex to utter
Finally realizing what I had to hide

Staring uncovered truths in the eye
Was a terror I’d best soon forget
For it unleashed a knowing that was too great
My fragile emotions fell to pieces

The exposed reality was as obvious as day
Begging me to accept all of its implications
There was no way for me to hide from the fact
I was no longer able to claim ignorance

All that was exposed, produced the worst of outcomes
The realization that I was negligent
That I had failed to be open with myself
That I had too easily dismissed my temptation

It is now I understand what I have missed
The prolonged agony of avoiding the path before me
I hate you drunken stupor
For the brute seduction of truthfulness

The inebriated field of unexplored scenarios
Draws me into realms of questioning I would rather avoid
For some answers scare me more than sobering up
All too often, the results of both are less than ideal

Yet there is no further escaping
All of the fail safes are off
Inhibitions that should stop me from asking these questions
Have been conquered by high level proofs

I am defenseless in front of the truth
Staggering under alcohol and the weight of fact
Wishing to pass out from recollection and thoughts of you
To know a moments peace in this onslaught

My head swims in booze and questions
Fighting to stay above the sea of reason
The sharks of logic circle hungrily below
Waiting to take bites of sense out of me

Until this night, I had resisted your temptation
Allowed myself to stay sober in uncontrolled confusion
I have found release at the bottom of a bottle
A confrontation with issues best avoided

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