I could never take my own life
My desperation isn't great enough
To give up hope, seems cowardly
I am too smart to think death is a solution
My demise would be the end of any chance I had
To obtain what I sought
 
I could never take my own life
I simply can't think of a good enough reason
Death seems to be an unequal trade-in
Giving up a wondrous chance for change
For the complications of an endless sleep
My termination won?t bring about an absolution

I could never take my own life
It's much easier to say that now
After I?ve spent an hour on a bridge
Trying to convince myself to lean over
To take that fateful freefall
Into the shallow river

I could never take my own life
Knowing that the end was permanent
Suicide would be the silencing of my voice
The voice I desperately need to make heard
Read those two lines again
Think it through

I could never take my own life
I am woven into the fabric of society
A multi-colored plaid suit to be sure
A fashion I would rather not propagate
But I will not become a loose thread
Unraveling the life of those around me

I could never take my own life
I need the complexity of living
Afterlife would become monotonous in a hurry
Besides, the ones I love are here
They wouldn?t greet me on the other side
Heaven would feel like a loveless prison

I could never take my own life
My investment in this, is far too great
To cash in now, would be a disaster
Causing an emotional bankruptcy
Initiating a stock market collapse
Bringing down the world economy of hope

I could never take my own life
There must be an easier way to dull the pain
I can?t give up a fight just because I might lose
How do I justify my surrender to my brethren?
How could they look at me with respect?
There would be no dignity in the words of my eulogy

I could never take my own life
Although some days, it seems the easiest choice
There is too much to see and do
Though I know I'll never get to do it all
Life is an endless stream of trade-offs
Leading to a mediocre existence at best

I could never take my own life
It wouldn't be fair to the rest of the world
To excuse myself from living
Simply because I became tired of hardships
I won't loosen my grip on hope
Even though I may lose sight of possibilities

I could never take my own life
Knowing I would cause my friends to cry
Causing grief to others, seems rather self-centered
It is time to realize I matter to someone, somewhere
Maybe, just maybe, the world doesn't revolve around me
I will find the inner strength to bare my share of the weight

I could never take my own life
There has to be a point when I say, "no"
"No" to my self-hate
"No" to my self-pity
It's time to force myself up
To become the one I want to be

I could never take my own life
I don't have the hopelessness needed
I have enough in my life to get by
Though I may not have the best of anything
I do what I can, with what I have
Life isn't easy for anyone

I could never take my own life
I am not that important
There wouldn?t be the attention I need in it
I need to find a better solution
A more self-reliant measure
A stronger way to express myself

I could never take my own life
Based on my failure to make smart choices
For failing to open myself up
By neglecting my own well being
After all, I've been given plenty of tools
Why would I remain a tool less Neanderthal?

I could never take my own life
Death isn't the answer to any problem
It is the end of a chance to do anything about it
Bringing about the termination
Of your opportunity to express yourself
And make your voice heard












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