this is what I need
and all who do not understand can not grasp their reality..
you never felt the pain as I have...
call me what you will ..
forsake me for my lust..
but this never ending pain is always apart of me..
I feel it every step I take..
I smell it in the air..
I taste it on my lips..
it tempts me with every warm willing body that walks by me..
oh you have no idea the pain it causes me..
I shrink in to shadow ad fall to my knees..
"I can not, I will not.."
my hell is the body that I can not escape..
this craving I can't extinguished..
this hunger that is never satisfied..
I need to feel it to make through the day..
why must I feel guilt...
I walk home..
back in to the darkness..
the pain is over taking me..
every part of me urns to feel replenished..
gods I need this.....

*Slice*

as the blood runs down my cheek,
I finally feel some kind of relief..
the pain is finally gone..

(note: this may be a bit graphic for some, and if
any one need the content of this poem explained I will be happy to do so, and I also want to apologies to any one I may have offended for that was not my intention.)

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