In the dark I sit alone
And for reasons, to the world unknown,
I silently begin to cry.
I look into the mirror and see a lie.
Yet I smile and return to the world I dread
All the time wishing I was dead.
All the while, no one knows,
My secret that never shows.

I laugh along, but it’s all pretend,
So no one sees I'm near my end.
I lock away all of my sin
Although it’s hidden right on my skin
The world around me is so unreal,
And the only way for me to feel,
It to drown myself within the flood,
Of my deep dark crimson blood.

Everyday I hear death’s call,
Yet everyday I let the blade fall.
I wish each day my heart would stop,
Yet still I let the blade just drop.
I feel the blade, my silver friend,
And I think of why my life must end
My memories flood into my head,
And I realize how I’ve been misled.

As the blade goes deeper, I hear the voice say
Stop and wait until another day
I cover it up and smile once more,
Just like I've done so many times before,
But this time someone looks past my charms,
And sees the cuts all up my arms,
They look into my darkened eyes,
And see right through me hollow lies.

They speak to me, with love and care
And tell me that they are there
I share a glimpse of my broken soul
And slowly start to gain control.
That night when death calls me again,
I think of how my friends have been.
And the gentle voice begins to repeal
And finally, I feel more real.

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