take those scissors you hold in your hands
cut my strings
i don't want to be a puppet
unlock my chains and let me go
but i don't deserve to be let go

just bubbled up thoughts
in my clouded head
with clouded eyes
cuz' the chain around me neck has become too tight
i keep pulling
i want me to die

mars, i hate you.

i can only close my eyes
to see my brown ones looking back at me
i give up and run to the bathroom
my wrists can't stop bleeding
i made me do that
the blood became nothing
my blood is nothing
i just want to dig my fangs into my skin
and suck out the [me]

i slowly chant to me
how it won't hurt
i just have to close my eyes
and push me underwater
make my head crash
and my body hurry to respond
hold my neck down
i won't let myself get up
until my eyes i see are clouded
and my chest no longer moving with fake breaths

but i have to turn away from the mirror again

goddamnit mars.
why can't you just die?

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