scared of fallings
ghosts are calling
the pavements getting close
wind rushing through my hair as if being played by ghosts.

i hit the ground
giving a bone cracking sound and people start to gather
they draw my bodys outline on the ground and put me on a platter

they take me to the hospital i only have seconds left to go.
they give me drugs that will surely put on a show.

im getting dizzy and i cant keep open my eyes
but the only thing keeping me awake
is my loves beautiful eyes
oh the lies.

the lies she said
put on like bread
they must of rubbed off on me.
for i played the game too.
but she didnt see it from my perspective
for she couldnt tell my truths from lies

so now she left me with an uncertain look on my face.
shes put me back down again my heart is gone and misplaced
i wish she would come back to me i wish she would try again.
but now shes scared and i dont know where to begin.

i wake in a hospital room stapped to the bed.
i see needles and IVS in my arms
blood stained sheets
what ever happened im sure glad i wasnt awake for it

untill i noticed they wernt doing operation on my body
no
they were doing operation on my brain
insane?
INVAIN!

I scream and shout and scramble my arms and legs
two big men in suits walk in
hold me down while a nurse gives me another shot.
I fall asleep fast and dream of her again.

her hazel eyes,
her short cut hair
my desteny ceiced and turned to my demize
oh those hazel eyes.

leaving back a letter stateing (every thing in parenteses isnt in the note):

dear mom and dad
please dont be sad
dont get mad
it was never your fault
(alright mabey it was)
it was mix of things
we all know who your going to point fingers at
its wasnt because jeanette i promise you
our love had been wrecked and now i dont know what to do.
i took these pills to answer your prayers
no more pain mommie
and look dad no more annoying kid running around.
well, i hope you injoy your life and remember life isnt as meaningless as i think it is.

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