I just wanted a place where I could be myself,
Instead of pretending to be like someone else
Just to fit in

And because I didn't heed the warnings,
Even though you told me,
Fate got a hold of me
And twisted my heart with fear
Until it destroyed the opportunity

Well I guess, through this,
I shouldn't leave giving absolutely nothing,
I guess I owe you something

I wasn't trying to waste your time--
Maybe I was just hesitating, and hesitated too long
Maybe my introversion kept me lurking in the corners,
Afraid to step into the light, until the light was gone

And maybe now I'm holding this so dear
Because I know my end is near

Not sealed into the darkness, now
I can step out and breathe knowing that I'll soon be shot down
And dead before I have time to grow,
Dead before anybody knows..

So why don't I open up a little more now,
Because my demise is clear
No need to worry so much about my actions,
Because my end is so near

It's just the way I am--
I was shut off in the days of sunshine,
And now I'm shut off in these days of sweet rain
Regardless of the type of people that surround me-- the atmosphere
It's hard to outwardly express my pain

Hesitating until it's too late
It's in my nature to be left feeling guilty
I seem to only expose myself in my final hour
Because no one will really remember me

But you deserve more than my abandonment and emptiness,
So I guess I owe you this,

I guess I owe you this

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