I wrote this when i was 20 years old...
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I woke up this morning in a bad ass mood
I looked at the time and realized I was screwed
I figured there was no point getting my ass out of bed
I was already pissed off that I wasn't dead
But my girl wouldn't stop calling me
This bitch wont let me fucking be
So I dragged my limp body out of bed
And "Fuck today" is all I said

Fuck today and everyone in it
Fuck this life, I wanna quit it
Fuck the air I breathe that keeps me alive
Fuck all the drugs I take to survive
Fuck all the scars on my wrists
Fuck my bruised and bloody fists
Fuck my suicidal plea
Fuck you and fuck me,fuck everybody

And you had to make my day even worst by calling me on the phone
You had yourself crying and telling me you don't want to be alone
You kept telling me without me you couldn't live
But you'r the only person I'll never forgive
So just curl up and die somewhere
Because I fucking hate you if you were unaware
So don't sit on the other line telling me you love me
Fuck you bitch, we will never again be
But you still won't give up yet
I guess this is something your to stupid to get
So when you said without me your dead
"Fuck you" is all I said

Fuck today and everyone in it
Fuck this life I wanna quit it
Fuck you for every tear you made me cry
Fuck you I hope you die
Fuck all the brusies you left in my heart
Fuck you for letting us drift apart
Fuck you for every punch and shove
Fuck you and fuck me, fuck love

Now I'm sitting alone in my room crying
God I wish I was fucking dieing
I've already smoked two joints and snorted six lines of coke
My heart is beating so fast I think I'm going to have a stroke
The room is spinning so fucking fast
I'm wondering how long this trip is going to last
I'm starting to lose it, I'm going out of control
Now it's finally time for me to pay my toll
My hand is shaking so bad I can hardly write my sucide note
But "Fuck life" is what I wrote

Fuck today and everyone in it
Fuck this life I wanna quit it
Fuck all the pain that this life brings me
Fuck these chains, I wanna be free
Fuck the blood that pours out of my veins
Fuck my dead and cold remains
Fuck my last breath I take with this knife
Fuck you and fuck me, fuck life

Fuck what use to be today and everyone that "was" in it
Fuck this life, I just quit it

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