I caught a glimpse of your shadow as i ran out of the building that night
(sometimes i question what i know to be fact)
It must have been wishful thinking on my part to have you come into my life at the perfect moment
(life used to be more like a storybook)
Its been a long time since anything or anyone has intrigued me
(its been even longer since I can pretend my life isnt intriguing)
I recall being barely conscious
(I wish you wouldn't stare like that)
its disturbing that im finding this erotic
I dont even have the breath to scream
but my head slamming against the wall will suffice
I bit my lip when you told me all the details the next morning
later that week... or maybe it was the same day you were choking on the feathers of my boa when i tried to tie you to the fence
you told me the taste of chlorine made you sick and through me in the pool
one morning you called and asked me in a hurt tone why i wasnt laying next to you
I thought we had that understanding
(im usually wrong about these things)
I tried harder to commit and you pretended that night at the factories never happened
(now you are making me melt)
I remember apologizing when i saw the blood smeared on your cheek
I kissed you and picked the pieces of gravel off one by one
you told me you loved me
We fell asleep on the grass that night
you loved me enough to overlook the fact that I would most likely lose my shoes at some point during the night
I loved you enough to encourage you to quit your job and pursue your music
( you still kick ass in my book)
we shed many tears
hung each other out to dry
many collect phone calls, plane tickets, and sappy love songs written by you later we had to part
again please accept my apologies
(I accept yours)
we are both incapable of turning it down a notch
one night you were playing your guitar outside
I looked out the window and blow you a kiss
you winked at me and sang a little louder
that's how i like to remember you
even when it all seemed to be going wrong we could laugh at ourselves
(they say normal people dont find it funny to forget what state they left their car in)
I wish I could remember our reunion last year
all i have is vague flashes of the mirrored ceiling
I hope I got a chance to say goodbye
Im sure we owe each other apologies
I will always smile when I think of you
not even I look as stunning in those steel bracelets
There isnt many people that get me like you do
I think you called me the other day and hung up when I answered
( that's ok sometimes I am tempted to do the same)

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